27/10/2008

went TTDI plaza to have a drink just now...i don't like club, i prefer lounge bar...
I know I cant drink, i can even feel drunk when i drank only half bottle of beer, so i never order alcohol drink just now, but some kind of fruit juice i order..ya la ya la, i know i'm lousy enough la...wahaha...just cant stand for the smell, the taste and the feeling of alcohol..*suffer*

went for a wedding dinner last night, it make me think of many things again and again...what surprising me is, i never ever feel sad anymore, not even a moment..i enjoy myself with the video, the music and the enviroment there...so relaxing and i feel glad and happy for the new couples...congratulation..
get so much news about him recently from his family, he bring the girl back to his house finally, so fast i thought...but none of my business and i got no feeling on it anymore...just all the best to him and hope he really get what he actually want...
read a meningful blog from somebody few days ago, she write out all my feeling..

"Things always turn out the other way which is out of our expectation. It take 5 years or even more to start and to maintain a relationship yet it takes only 5minutes to end it. I know it sound dramatic but its really happened in real life. Stopping yourself to do somethings you like will make you unhappy for the times being but stopping yourself to love someone you love is definitely not an easy task. It needs lots of courage and firmness to make such an unpleasant decison. And picking up the broken pieces once again will surely takes a longer healing time than ever. We will never move on with our life if we never let it go. Try your best. No matter how long its takes to get over someone, we are the one who is in the driving seat of your misery. Never get things twisted because it's not him to stop you from moving on yet we are the one who is still engaging and allowing them to mess with our mind..Be tough, Be strong..."

although i take almost 4 years to maintain a relationship, but i do need time to heal as well...i will never hate him for being unfaithful, but i should thank him for letting me to learn to be independent...i grow up alot, never ever drop my tears anymore for someone like him, not worth and its only wasted my energy of crying for someone who had so much lie on him...
Is better for me to let go earlier and move on with my life..and i believe i will be more enjoyable without him cause i got no more control from him anymore...laughther and much joy i had now...

当依靠的肩膀不再， 当我的眼泪流干，当我决定放手，我的心已不在了！！