就如他说的一样，一切就是这么的单纯，这么的甜蜜，就算是很普通的一件事，一个人，也可以让你怀念好久好久！！
突然发觉我要的不就是很简单的一切吗？
是你让我记起了我该有的美好回忆，
是你让我觉得，其实简单也可以很美好，
是你让我觉得，其实我也可以好好的被呵护，
一切就只是那么的简单，那么的美好！！
还记得，，，
你是第一个在我最需要的时候听我述说，
你是第一个在我失恋时，陪我聊天，让我别哭的那一个，
你还是和以前一样，我们还是可以无说不谈，就好像以前一样，
只是，方式不一样了，话题更多了，感觉也不一样了，
但至少，我们还保存那份回忆！！
谢谢你，让我记起了这一切，
谢谢你，让我有过这么简单不过的幸福，
谢谢你，陪我聊了好多好多！！
好好保存属于我们的回忆，也请原谅我那时带给你的伤害，
我，真的不是故意的！！
你说的很对，相信是绝对不能缺少的，
而我对你就少了那一份相信，
对他，我却给了很多很多的信任，
直到现在，我还在重复问着自己，
是该给于信任，还是不应该？
而信任的定义是什么，极限又是什么？
对于感情，我真的没有任何的勇气，
我拥有过，我也失去过，
伤害在所难免，
而我，却选择把自己封锁在自己的世界中，
好好的保护自己，
不让自己在受伤害，
可是，这一切真的好累！！
soo ching
谢谢你曾带给我的一切，
谢谢你让我在你的部落格里留的一席位，
谢谢你，真的谢谢你！！
人老了，就会怀旧。我不老，但是我很念旧。可能是因为我是金牛座，也可能是我认为一段缘分并不是那么容易得到。我要趁我还年轻时就要把重要的事情给写下，为以后能有个美好的回忆。今天与一位对我而言十分特殊的朋友交谈。我们开心的聊了两小时。她带给我无穷的美好记忆。一切都是从：“我们可以做个朋友吗？”开始。我还记得那时我只是一个中二的小男孩。就是因为在我发现桌子上的那句留言，才认识了对方。还记得那时的校桌是木制的，面积有限。但是并不能够阻止我们的交谈。有时写满了整张桌子都还不够呢。每天到班第一件事就是先看看她给我的留言，看看今天她的心情怎样，发生了什么事等等，再加以想象她的表情会是怎样。那时我们还不是很流行SMS或MSN。一切都是那么的实在，那么的美好。渐渐地，桌上‘MSN'被一班十分’关心‘我的朋友们发现。我们不得不转换聊天方法。那就是写信。从簿子里撕下几页就可以开始在纸上高谈阔论。过后还要神神秘秘的把它折好放在抽屉暗处。其实啊，有点像是访问般，因为都会问对方很多问题。然后回迫不及待等她回复。哈哈。后来写多了华语作文还会进步呢！可能是比拟和比喻都很好的点缀了整篇作文吧。从此我的作文都是写得不赖的哦！PMR 和 SPM 都是甲等哦！但是关心我的朋友们又怎会那么容易放过我们呢？结果令到我们要把纸给粘在桌下才可以躲开耳目。好景不常在，这招也不管用了。怎么办？这时，SMS 就开始发挥了它的作用，也是我的第一次发短讯的经验。那时我还没有手提电话的。只可以偷偷用家人不用的旧手提电话，再自己去买SIM卡。好像电影里那些特务一样。一切都不能暴光。SMS那可以满足那说不完的话？能说悄悄话才是谈恋爱的精髓。我永远都不会忘记中秋节时我对她所说过的话。抱歉我要把这回忆留给我和她而已。我们不是同年，她比我年长一岁，但是我们是共用一张桌子和椅子。她是早班我是午班。但是这并不能阻止大家碰面，难度不小啊。还记得那时有送过一条花了我很久时间选的项链给她作定情礼物。她还送我冬季恋歌的CD呢！可能我有点像裴勇俊吧哈哈哈！就像大多数的韩剧一样，最后的结局都是分手散场。因为一些无谓的人说了一些中伤我的话才会这样。人言可畏阿！更重要的是，一定要用你的心去相信你的伴侣。勿信谗言。不然你可能就会错过一段美好的恋情了。我就是一个好例子。今天我们都好好的怀念过去所发生的点点滴滴。所有的误会今天终于水落石出了~感恩。突然很感触地想要回去中学走走，去怀念过去曾经走过的路，坐过的地方，吃过的食物，仔细感受那一段曾经属于我们的回忆。
谢谢你，灵。谢谢你在我的人生道路上留给我专属你我的幸福。我不知道未来我们会怎样，但是至少我们都还是一样，心里头还是有一个专属对方的位子。
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
16/12/2008
Wah...moody...no mood...BORING!!!
Am I giving myself too much trouble??
Am I stressing myself too much?
Am I giving excuses to escape from all the reality?
Am I torturing myself?
I dunno...I wonder...I worry...
What was happening to me actually?
I been asking the same damm question again and again...
But still, I cant get the answer...
Come on, is really enough for myself to behave like this..
I hate myself...
I hate myself for behaving like this...
I hate myself for troubling myself this much...
I hate myself for doing all this over and over again...
What should I do?
How should I release myself...
How can I set myself free...
I hate this kind of feelings so so so much...
Arghhh............
Stupid Me...
Dumb Me..
*visit me in the hospital if you guys never see me online for atleast 2days...
people got only ONE Appendicitis, but i think i got TWO..
I went for the surgery 4years ago, I think I gonna "VISIT" the same doctor again,
and i need to ask him whether he left any scalpel, cotton or needle inside my stomach,
or if he forgot to take out the "cheong" that make me suffer for painess on and off...
wish me luck or I will sue the doctor...*
Gosh, pain like hell..
Am I giving myself too much trouble??
Am I stressing myself too much?
Am I giving excuses to escape from all the reality?
Am I torturing myself?
I dunno...I wonder...I worry...
What was happening to me actually?
I been asking the same damm question again and again...
But still, I cant get the answer...
Come on, is really enough for myself to behave like this..
I hate myself...
I hate myself for behaving like this...
I hate myself for troubling myself this much...
I hate myself for doing all this over and over again...
What should I do?
How should I release myself...
How can I set myself free...
I hate this kind of feelings so so so much...
Arghhh............
Stupid Me...
Dumb Me..
*visit me in the hospital if you guys never see me online for atleast 2days...
people got only ONE Appendicitis, but i think i got TWO..
I went for the surgery 4years ago, I think I gonna "VISIT" the same doctor again,
and i need to ask him whether he left any scalpel, cotton or needle inside my stomach,
or if he forgot to take out the "cheong" that make me suffer for painess on and off...
wish me luck or I will sue the doctor...*
Gosh, pain like hell..
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
09/12/2008
我要把幸福裝滿, 一起送給你。。
爱上一个人, 如此的甜蜜却又让人受伤害！！
放棄一个人, 如此的难过却又让人心碎！！
因为爱你.所以放手还你自由。。
因为爱你.所以不再让你困扰。。
因为爱你.所以宁愿自己难过。。
因为爱你.所以我逼自己离开。。
如果我还一直深爱着你，你是否还会待在我身边?
如果我还一直在乎着你，你是否会再多看我一眼?
是否我已不存在了，你才感觉的到我的离开?
是否我已离开了，你才感觉的到我得存在?
能选择要不要喜欢上一個人或爱上一個人吗?
喜欢上了，爱上了，就是了!!
珍惜眼前人，
在缤纷的世界中 你我相识，
不管是一次偶然的相逢，
或是成為永远的知已，
我都一样珍惜。。
最真挚的爱情不需要承諾，
注定緣份的情人不需要約定，
只要真心真意的对待眼前的他，
虽然知道你不爱我，但愿默默的守候着你。。
The Most Beautiful Relationship is
Respect, Understanding and Trust！！！
What a post by what a me...
That me, YAP CHAI LING!!
Wahahaha...
爱上一个人, 如此的甜蜜却又让人受伤害！！
放棄一个人, 如此的难过却又让人心碎！！
因为爱你.所以放手还你自由。。
因为爱你.所以不再让你困扰。。
因为爱你.所以宁愿自己难过。。
因为爱你.所以我逼自己离开。。
如果我还一直深爱着你，你是否还会待在我身边?
如果我还一直在乎着你，你是否会再多看我一眼?
是否我已不存在了，你才感觉的到我的离开?
是否我已离开了，你才感觉的到我得存在?
能选择要不要喜欢上一個人或爱上一個人吗?
喜欢上了，爱上了，就是了!!
珍惜眼前人，
在缤纷的世界中 你我相识，
不管是一次偶然的相逢，
或是成為永远的知已，
我都一样珍惜。。
最真挚的爱情不需要承諾，
注定緣份的情人不需要約定，
只要真心真意的对待眼前的他，
虽然知道你不爱我，但愿默默的守候着你。。
The Most Beautiful Relationship is
Respect, Understanding and Trust！！！
What a post by what a me...
That me, YAP CHAI LING!!
Wahahaha...
Thursday, December 4, 2008
4/12/2008
2008 has come to an end finally...the last month of December..
what had i do for the entire year? i done nothing but wasting my time..
never plan for my future before, i'm just depending, relying on him too much...
now, i have to plan for my future by myself...
我真的介意，对这一切切，我真的介意！！
我以为我很坚强，原来我也有想要被扶持的时候！！
我以为我会哭，原来我的眼泪已流干了！！
我以为我不在意，原来我比谁都还介意这一切的发生！！
真的不知道我还可以撑多久，真的不知道伪装的笑容会否被发现。。
真的不知道我还可以做些什么，真的不知道我还需要多长的时间！！
真的很想问“你，最近还好吗？”
真的很想什么都不知道，不去想，但这一切，都有点难，不是吗？
开始会给自己很多的问题，
开始会让自己想要有喝醉的感觉，他们都说，那感觉很好。。
可是，还没开始喝，我就早已醉了，醉得不省人事！！其实那感觉都不太好！！
我给的爱是否太任性了？
我要求的是否太多了？
这一切都过去了，
我不在乎你过得怎样，
就只希望你过得很好，很开心，很幸福，那就足够了，真的！！
我的世界是色彩的，
我的生活是充实的，
过去的就让它随风而去，
明天会更好
下一个会更好，哈哈！！
我的快乐，以回来了，
只要清楚曾爱得那么深刻，
不准问值不值得。。
我的快乐，以回来了，
离开不是你给了我的选择！！
waiting for the upcoming christmas eve and new year eve..
PARTY PARTY PARTY
what had i do for the entire year? i done nothing but wasting my time..
never plan for my future before, i'm just depending, relying on him too much...
now, i have to plan for my future by myself...
我真的介意，对这一切切，我真的介意！！
我以为我很坚强，原来我也有想要被扶持的时候！！
我以为我会哭，原来我的眼泪已流干了！！
我以为我不在意，原来我比谁都还介意这一切的发生！！
真的不知道我还可以撑多久，真的不知道伪装的笑容会否被发现。。
真的不知道我还可以做些什么，真的不知道我还需要多长的时间！！
真的很想问“你，最近还好吗？”
真的很想什么都不知道，不去想，但这一切，都有点难，不是吗？
开始会给自己很多的问题，
开始会让自己想要有喝醉的感觉，他们都说，那感觉很好。。
可是，还没开始喝，我就早已醉了，醉得不省人事！！其实那感觉都不太好！！
我给的爱是否太任性了？
我要求的是否太多了？
这一切都过去了，
我不在乎你过得怎样，
就只希望你过得很好，很开心，很幸福，那就足够了，真的！！
我的世界是色彩的，
我的生活是充实的，
过去的就让它随风而去，
明天会更好
下一个会更好，哈哈！！
我的快乐，以回来了，
只要清楚曾爱得那么深刻，
不准问值不值得。。
我的快乐，以回来了，
离开不是你给了我的选择！！
waiting for the upcoming christmas eve and new year eve..
PARTY PARTY PARTY
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
02/12/2008
The last day of November (30/11/2008), had a one day trip to Pahang with my family members and some close friends of daddy..A jalan jalan cari makan trip all the way from KL to Pahang,
A "Buddha Jump Wall" trip...
The most funniest part are we do visit to elephant zoo, deer farm, taufu factory and also peanut factory!!!
Keep on eating all the way, enjoying laughing, eating, sleeping, dreaming, thinking and chit chatting in the bus...
Should plan for another upcoming family trips!!
Quite a long time never update any new posts...
not in the mood recently...
not in the mood to do everythings...
not in the mood to blog...
---to be continue--
Sunday, November 23, 2008
一篇男生都會明白，女生都會感慨知道太遲的文章
男人要永遠感謝在他20多歲的時候曾經陪在他身邊的女人，因為20多歲的男人處在一生中的最低點,沒錢、沒地位，沒房、沒車、沒事業，不能獨立又不想依賴，掙扎著徠 著，尋找自己的位置！而20多歲的女人卻是她生命中最燦爛的時候；
男人要永遠感謝在他20多歲的時候曾經陪在他身邊的女人，
因為二十多歲的男人還很“闈懂”，
而二十多歲的女人卻很燦爛；
二十多歲的男人處在一生中的最低點，
而二十多歲的女人卻是她的大好華年；
二十多歲的男人很不知珍惜，
而二十多歲的女人最需要被珍惜；
二十多歲的男人自卑到极點所以非常自負，
而二十多歲的女人卻在努力建立他的自信；
二十多歲的男人不懂愛，不會愛卻需要愛，
而二十多歲的女人需要被愛，需要關怀，卻要付出呵護付出關怀；
二十多歲的男人沒錢、沒事業，但有欲望而二十多歲的女人空守著自己的韶光不再；
女孩子二十歲左右是她最美麗的年華，這時她的心地最善良，她有點成熟，又有點孩子气。
男孩子在二十多歲時遇見了一個年紀相當的女孩子，那一定要珍惜她，
因為這個女孩是用自己最美麗的年華陪他走過了最暗淡的日子！！
女孩只要陪他走過，女孩會永遠幸福下去~~~
當女孩對你撒嬌甚至無理取鬧時，請男孩不要煩惱女孩，因為她們有道理這樣，
我們沒理由煩惱，我們要做的就是很理解很理解，保護好這位天使，
等我們到了30歲，正當我們最美麗的時候，也請你不要放開這位曾經的天使！！！
二十多歲的男人不知道珍惜,不知道感恩。
當他們三十多歲的時候,事業有成,成熟穩重。
開始嫌棄曾經陪伴過他,但不再年輕的女人。
有人說男人其實是最專一的，
因為從20歲到80歲的男人都喜歡20歲左右年輕漂亮的女人.這是個笑話,但也是個事實。
有人說現在的年輕女孩都很現實,眼中沒有愛情。
稱著年輕嫁個有錢的,一輩子也就有個歸宿了。
男人有時好比洋蔥,要想看到洋蔥的心就需要一層一層去剝。
但是女人在剝的過程會不斷流淚剝到最后才知道，原來洋蔥是沒有心的。
男人要永遠感謝在他20多歲的時候曾經陪在他身邊的女人，
因為二十多歲的男人還很“闈懂”，
而二十多歲的女人卻很燦爛；
二十多歲的男人處在一生中的最低點，
而二十多歲的女人卻是她的大好華年；
二十多歲的男人很不知珍惜，
而二十多歲的女人最需要被珍惜；
二十多歲的男人自卑到极點所以非常自負，
而二十多歲的女人卻在努力建立他的自信；
二十多歲的男人不懂愛，不會愛卻需要愛，
而二十多歲的女人需要被愛，需要關怀，卻要付出呵護付出關怀；
二十多歲的男人沒錢、沒事業，但有欲望而二十多歲的女人空守著自己的韶光不再；
女孩子二十歲左右是她最美麗的年華，這時她的心地最善良，她有點成熟，又有點孩子气。
男孩子在二十多歲時遇見了一個年紀相當的女孩子，那一定要珍惜她，
因為這個女孩是用自己最美麗的年華陪他走過了最暗淡的日子！！
女孩只要陪他走過，女孩會永遠幸福下去~~~
當女孩對你撒嬌甚至無理取鬧時，請男孩不要煩惱女孩，因為她們有道理這樣，
我們沒理由煩惱，我們要做的就是很理解很理解，保護好這位天使，
等我們到了30歲，正當我們最美麗的時候，也請你不要放開這位曾經的天使！！！
二十多歲的男人不知道珍惜,不知道感恩。
當他們三十多歲的時候,事業有成,成熟穩重。
開始嫌棄曾經陪伴過他,但不再年輕的女人。
有人說男人其實是最專一的，
因為從20歲到80歲的男人都喜歡20歲左右年輕漂亮的女人.這是個笑話,但也是個事實。
有人說現在的年輕女孩都很現實,眼中沒有愛情。
稱著年輕嫁個有錢的,一輩子也就有個歸宿了。
男人有時好比洋蔥,要想看到洋蔥的心就需要一層一層去剝。
但是女人在剝的過程會不斷流淚剝到最后才知道，原來洋蔥是沒有心的。
22/11/2008
It been so long i never hang out till midnight untill yesterday...reach house at around 3am in the morning..headed down to KLANG for a dinner with sherlene as her belated birthday party at Carey Island..the dished over there is delicious, fresh and the pricing is reasonable, satisfied for it..went over to Klang Executive Club for a short session drinks and a small celebration for sherlene's BF's friend..his friends are just nice and friendly..
Met a new friend who look so much like JJ Lin, a very cute boy, a gentleman "boy", he is just a boy I should said, because he was only 19..he was so adorable, the way he speak in mandarin and hokkien, so nice and friendly..a very cute BOY...
Happy Belated Birthday once again, Ms Sherlene..
Come over to KL, and we bring you a day trip, haha...
Finally, get to meet up with my girls today..brunch at BarBQ plaza and as usual, tea time at our all time favourite---StarBuck..
Still we share, we talk and we laugh..really really long time never meet both of you already, thank for sharing the precious time with me when I'm so down even both of you are having exam..really thank so much..
Lets go for facial and lets shop at Kota Damansara one day...waiting for it..
To Kai Yun and RuYin..
There should be so much things i would like to share with you guys actually, but you all know me well, i really dunno how to put it in word, i rather put all or i should said i'm hiding all inside my heart, keeping everythings myself? I really do not know..
I realize so much after Kai Yun telling us her story, i'm not the one who suffering in life only, what i lose now is just a realtionship, so what? but how bout other who facing those strees even more than me just like kai yun? LOVE is not everythings, i know, but it do take times to heal as i always said, i dunno whether I'm 100% recover from all the past or I'm just pretending, I really dunno, even me myself could not understand what was deep inside my heart..I really really mind for everythings that happened these few years, never ever share everythings with everyone because i really dunno by how even i wanted so much...
我真的没有爱下去的勇气，那种感觉至今我都还记得，
爱将我高高举起以后，再狠狠地把我的心坠落，
那种心痛的感觉，真的很难形容！!
真的有好多的话想告诉你们，可是我真的不知道该如何或从何说起，
因为这4年来，我从没告诉过你们我的感情生活，
永远都只告诉你们在这段感情中我有多快乐，多幸福，
不快乐的事情，我也从来没有告诉过你们，
所以这一次的感觉，真的很痛，心真的还会痛！！
到底我是真的看开了，不想再向你们提这段感情的创伤，还是我又选择了逃避，把我认为并不太坏的事情告诉你们，最坏的又自己自己受了起来？
心里有好多的问号想问你们，可是话到嘴边，却又说不出了，真的好讨厌这样的自己！！
4年了，用了4年的时间来爱一个人，却用了不到一个月的时间来放弃同样的一个人，
世界不停地在改变，而我们也随着周围的环境在改变，
习惯真的是很可怕的东西，我也不知道我爱他，还是习惯了有他?
以前，真的很喜欢与你们混在一起的时间，在学校的时间，
有争执，有欢笑，有眼泪，更有不少的回忆，
怀念以前单纯的快乐，好久好久没让自己好好的快乐了！！
受过伤的心，我真的不知道还需要多久的时间来复原，
我真的不知道，我宁愿自己可以好好的大哭一场，
可是不知道为什么，眼泪真得再也流不出来了，
累了，倦了，还是心已没有感觉了？
我值得真正的快乐，不是吗？
Met a new friend who look so much like JJ Lin, a very cute boy, a gentleman "boy", he is just a boy I should said, because he was only 19..he was so adorable, the way he speak in mandarin and hokkien, so nice and friendly..a very cute BOY...
Happy Belated Birthday once again, Ms Sherlene..
Come over to KL, and we bring you a day trip, haha...
Finally, get to meet up with my girls today..brunch at BarBQ plaza and as usual, tea time at our all time favourite---StarBuck..
Still we share, we talk and we laugh..really really long time never meet both of you already, thank for sharing the precious time with me when I'm so down even both of you are having exam..really thank so much..
Lets go for facial and lets shop at Kota Damansara one day...waiting for it..
To Kai Yun and RuYin..
There should be so much things i would like to share with you guys actually, but you all know me well, i really dunno how to put it in word, i rather put all or i should said i'm hiding all inside my heart, keeping everythings myself? I really do not know..
I realize so much after Kai Yun telling us her story, i'm not the one who suffering in life only, what i lose now is just a realtionship, so what? but how bout other who facing those strees even more than me just like kai yun? LOVE is not everythings, i know, but it do take times to heal as i always said, i dunno whether I'm 100% recover from all the past or I'm just pretending, I really dunno, even me myself could not understand what was deep inside my heart..I really really mind for everythings that happened these few years, never ever share everythings with everyone because i really dunno by how even i wanted so much...
我真的没有爱下去的勇气，那种感觉至今我都还记得，
爱将我高高举起以后，再狠狠地把我的心坠落，
那种心痛的感觉，真的很难形容！!
真的有好多的话想告诉你们，可是我真的不知道该如何或从何说起，
因为这4年来，我从没告诉过你们我的感情生活，
永远都只告诉你们在这段感情中我有多快乐，多幸福，
不快乐的事情，我也从来没有告诉过你们，
所以这一次的感觉，真的很痛，心真的还会痛！！
到底我是真的看开了，不想再向你们提这段感情的创伤，还是我又选择了逃避，把我认为并不太坏的事情告诉你们，最坏的又自己自己受了起来？
心里有好多的问号想问你们，可是话到嘴边，却又说不出了，真的好讨厌这样的自己！！
4年了，用了4年的时间来爱一个人，却用了不到一个月的时间来放弃同样的一个人，
世界不停地在改变，而我们也随着周围的环境在改变，
习惯真的是很可怕的东西，我也不知道我爱他，还是习惯了有他?
以前，真的很喜欢与你们混在一起的时间，在学校的时间，
有争执，有欢笑，有眼泪，更有不少的回忆，
怀念以前单纯的快乐，好久好久没让自己好好的快乐了！！
受过伤的心，我真的不知道还需要多久的时间来复原，
我真的不知道，我宁愿自己可以好好的大哭一场，
可是不知道为什么，眼泪真得再也流不出来了，
累了，倦了，还是心已没有感觉了？
我值得真正的快乐，不是吗？
Sunday, November 16, 2008
16/11/2008
11月16日！！
一个多月前，我还在为今天的到来期待着，
一个对月前，我还在憧憬今天会如何度过，
一个多月前，我还在精心计划着今天的到来，
一个多月前，我突然对今天的到来有点害怕，
一个多月前，我放弃了所有的计划，
一个多月前，我为这段感情流了不少的泪。。
一个多月后，我有了新的生活，
一个多月后，我放弃了属于我们的生活，
一个多月后，我对于我们的一切都感到很疲惫，
一个多月后，我告诉自己，我们不要再见面，
一个多月后，我的心就算在痛，也不会在留任何一滴泪，
一个多月后，我告诉自己“没有你在身边的日子，我要比谁都还快乐”。
你永远都不会知道，你留给我的伤害有多少，
你永远都不会知道，你说的一切又多么的恐怖，
你永远都不会知道，再次看到你，我的心情有多复杂，
你永远都不会知道，我很努力的在忘记你，忘记我们的一切，
你永远都不会知道，我更本不想拥有属于我们的一起回忆，
你永远都不会知道，那时的我有多难过，多心痛，多崩溃。
这一切一切都已过去，曾经对我很重要的11月16日，也已成为过去！！
如今这个日子也只会成为在普通不过的日子了，
4年的11月16日，
在2004年开始，
也在2008年结束了！！
一个多月前，我还在为今天的到来期待着，
一个对月前，我还在憧憬今天会如何度过，
一个多月前，我还在精心计划着今天的到来，
一个多月前，我突然对今天的到来有点害怕，
一个多月前，我放弃了所有的计划，
一个多月前，我为这段感情流了不少的泪。。
一个多月后，我有了新的生活，
一个多月后，我放弃了属于我们的生活，
一个多月后，我对于我们的一切都感到很疲惫，
一个多月后，我告诉自己，我们不要再见面，
一个多月后，我的心就算在痛，也不会在留任何一滴泪，
一个多月后，我告诉自己“没有你在身边的日子，我要比谁都还快乐”。
你永远都不会知道，你留给我的伤害有多少，
你永远都不会知道，你说的一切又多么的恐怖，
你永远都不会知道，再次看到你，我的心情有多复杂，
你永远都不会知道，我很努力的在忘记你，忘记我们的一切，
你永远都不会知道，我更本不想拥有属于我们的一起回忆，
你永远都不会知道，那时的我有多难过，多心痛，多崩溃。
这一切一切都已过去，曾经对我很重要的11月16日，也已成为过去！！
如今这个日子也只会成为在普通不过的日子了，
4年的11月16日，
在2004年开始，
也在2008年结束了！！
Thursday, November 13, 2008
13/11/2008
New Brand Of Contact Lense = Tired Eye everyday...not comfortable at all..
New Pair Of Shoe = Leg Injured...so pain for the whole day..
New Environment = Make myself use to the life right now...
Tired & Pain!!!!
I'm tired...ishhh
New Pair Of Shoe = Leg Injured...so pain for the whole day..
New Environment = Make myself use to the life right now...
Tired & Pain!!!!
I'm tired...ishhh
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
12/11/2008
almost a week didn't uploaded any post!! I been slacking around the whole weeks even weekend...nothing to do, and I'm so lazy to do anythings..lazy to talk, lazy to eat, lazy to walk, lazy to shop, lazy to party and all I wanna do is only SLEEP and SLEEP and SLEEP!!!
oh my god, really not in the mood this few days, i do not know what was happening to me actually, I just feel lifeless, moody and lazy!!!
feel moody all the time, i also dunno why...i laugh when there is joke, i cry when there is incident happen, i talk when it is necessary, I also dunno what was happening actually...I just feel so lazy to do every single things..
tell me what can I do actually...I dunno why, I have to pretend that I'm so happy even I'm not...dun ask me the reason why, cause me myself also cannot find what was the problem that bothering me!!!
i keep telling myself, i'm strong enough, i'm tough enough, to face all this problem, and i do hope i really really do...but i just cannot understand what was happening to me nowadays...someone tell me?
so emotional....
I'm not sad yet I'm not that happy anymore!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i think i'm crazy enough to talk so much here...
男人哭了是因为他真的爱了。。。
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了。。。
oh my god, really not in the mood this few days, i do not know what was happening to me actually, I just feel lifeless, moody and lazy!!!
feel moody all the time, i also dunno why...i laugh when there is joke, i cry when there is incident happen, i talk when it is necessary, I also dunno what was happening actually...I just feel so lazy to do every single things..
tell me what can I do actually...I dunno why, I have to pretend that I'm so happy even I'm not...dun ask me the reason why, cause me myself also cannot find what was the problem that bothering me!!!
i keep telling myself, i'm strong enough, i'm tough enough, to face all this problem, and i do hope i really really do...but i just cannot understand what was happening to me nowadays...someone tell me?
so emotional....
I'm not sad yet I'm not that happy anymore!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i think i'm crazy enough to talk so much here...
男人哭了是因为他真的爱了。。。
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了。。。
Thursday, November 6, 2008
07/11/2008
你曾经说过: “你爱我”
你曾经说过：“你会珍惜我”
你曾经说过：“分手吧”
你曾经说过：“你讨厌我”
你曾经说过：“对不起”
你曾经说过：“我们是两个不同世界的人”
这一切一切，都还在我的脑海里转个不停，我也不知道此时此刻，我该用怎样的心情来面对，但这一切都过去了不是吗? 我也好久好久没想你了，至少我现在的生活过得很充实，很开心，我真的一点都不想了！！
我们的故事已经告一段落了，
你我都知道我们不可能在一起了，
你我都是两个世界不同的人，
你要的是自由，
我要的是认认真真去爱我的另一半。
对我来说，男朋友必须要有最基本的条件就是，
第一，懂得珍惜你
第二，懂得关心你
第三，懂得体贴你
第四，懂得专一
在你身上，我再也找不到这样的东西，所以我们的分开，或许是一件好事！！
所以，现在祝福你幸福快乐，
因为我知道你已经找到你该找的人了。
记住，我们的一切一切已经放下了。
恨对我来说，已经不重要而且我也放下了。
我们应该各自寻找自己的幸福了!!
所以，祝福你！！
你曾经说过：“你会珍惜我”
你曾经说过：“分手吧”
你曾经说过：“你讨厌我”
你曾经说过：“对不起”
你曾经说过：“我们是两个不同世界的人”
这一切一切，都还在我的脑海里转个不停，我也不知道此时此刻，我该用怎样的心情来面对，但这一切都过去了不是吗? 我也好久好久没想你了，至少我现在的生活过得很充实，很开心，我真的一点都不想了！！
我们的故事已经告一段落了，
你我都知道我们不可能在一起了，
你我都是两个世界不同的人，
你要的是自由，
我要的是认认真真去爱我的另一半。
对我来说，男朋友必须要有最基本的条件就是，
第一，懂得珍惜你
第二，懂得关心你
第三，懂得体贴你
第四，懂得专一
在你身上，我再也找不到这样的东西，所以我们的分开，或许是一件好事！！
所以，现在祝福你幸福快乐，
因为我知道你已经找到你该找的人了。
记住，我们的一切一切已经放下了。
恨对我来说，已经不重要而且我也放下了。
我们应该各自寻找自己的幸福了!!
所以，祝福你！！
Sunday, November 2, 2008
1/11/2008
Is NOVEMBER 2008...
Happy Birthday to my Dearest Grandma..love you lots...
Wake up early today as well...went to 1U for movie, High School Musical3...although i never watch 1&2, but i still vote 9/10 for this movie....is awesome...i just like the movie so much,will be watching 1&2 later on...
Haha, I thought I will be afraid of stepping back into 1U and cinema for so long so long, but after today, I realize I really enjoy of watching movie actually..I'm just loving it...so come on people, date me out for movie, i will be saying YES...haha..I love movie...I love 1U...
Went to Sri Petaling for Grandma birthday dinner..We were so late when we reach there...
But we still enjoy the dinner so much...we enjoy eating, we enjoy chatting, we enjoy the cake, we enjoy the photo capturing session and I enjoy making my Grandma smile...is so fun and warm seeing her laugh happily...Happy Blessed Birthday my dear Grandma...
There is not only relationship we can talk about in the world...there is still so much fun other than LOVE...family, friends, and so much more...so enjoy as much as you can when you are still single..and I were enjoying every single moment of mine...never ever want to waste anytime on it...enjoy my single life untill I found the right guy..enjoy kao kao people...
情断了，綁不住，试着放手，走或不走，留或不留，我不想懂！！！
Happy Birthday to my Dearest Grandma..love you lots...
Wake up early today as well...went to 1U for movie, High School Musical3...although i never watch 1&2, but i still vote 9/10 for this movie....is awesome...i just like the movie so much,will be watching 1&2 later on...
Haha, I thought I will be afraid of stepping back into 1U and cinema for so long so long, but after today, I realize I really enjoy of watching movie actually..I'm just loving it...so come on people, date me out for movie, i will be saying YES...haha..I love movie...I love 1U...
Went to Sri Petaling for Grandma birthday dinner..We were so late when we reach there...
But we still enjoy the dinner so much...we enjoy eating, we enjoy chatting, we enjoy the cake, we enjoy the photo capturing session and I enjoy making my Grandma smile...is so fun and warm seeing her laugh happily...Happy Blessed Birthday my dear Grandma...
There is not only relationship we can talk about in the world...there is still so much fun other than LOVE...family, friends, and so much more...so enjoy as much as you can when you are still single..and I were enjoying every single moment of mine...never ever want to waste anytime on it...enjoy my single life untill I found the right guy..enjoy kao kao people...
情断了，綁不住，试着放手，走或不走，留或不留，我不想懂！！！
Friday, October 31, 2008
31/10/2008
The last day of OCTOBER...I enjoy myself a lot on the last day of the month...
So tired, so exhausted but we do have a lot of fun for the girls hang out...
We went to JUSCO Bukit Tinggi Klang today...have our dinner at BBQ plaza after we walk around...i think we are quite satisfied for the food there..After dinner, we switched ourself to EURO FUNFAIR Bukit Tinggi Klang which we had desired for so long...the entrance fees was RM3, but the games inside was expensive..RM4-RM8 per game...alots of new games over there, but i only try on the 360 degree turn...at the moment, i feel like i can fly, but i can only fly inside the cage...all the things goes upside down...I shout as loud as I can, the stupid YING laughing at me...after shouting for so long, i realize I'm so funny of shouting that loud, wahahaha...but the strees was gone...totally gone..I think I should try on more excited game if i got the chance again...I Know I Am PENAKUT...wahahaha...
Pay RM3 for the entrance fees, pay RM6 for only a game...we headed back to JUSCO to grab ourself a drink from starbuck...finally i got mine caramel macchitto after so long, but the taste over there was a bit different, not that nice like what i usually have from other places...than we pack ourself a 7inch pizza, nice and delicious pizza from Bukit Tinggi JUSCO...
OH MY GOD, can you believe that we eat non stop when we hang together while we keep mentioning that we need diet? but is ok, as long as we are happy with it... (atleast I still lost few KGs already ma)
wah, i'm so tired, so sleepy but I'm still blogging here...too excited for the whole, too happy and too enjoy...I love my friday, I love 31st October...(HAPPY BIRTHDAY to YOU)
Good Night People...I'm sleepy and I'm tired...
To The Someone:
haha, another way of releasing strees is by shouting...a better way than drinking, crying and missing you...wahaha...
anyway, thanks for offering me your hand, your shouder and your eye for seeing me typing my complain...but i don't think i need it for quite sometimes la..thank so much also...wahahah...
and, dun miss me too much or else you will get addicted, MR 7-eleven...
So tired, so exhausted but we do have a lot of fun for the girls hang out...
We went to JUSCO Bukit Tinggi Klang today...have our dinner at BBQ plaza after we walk around...i think we are quite satisfied for the food there..After dinner, we switched ourself to EURO FUNFAIR Bukit Tinggi Klang which we had desired for so long...the entrance fees was RM3, but the games inside was expensive..RM4-RM8 per game...alots of new games over there, but i only try on the 360 degree turn...at the moment, i feel like i can fly, but i can only fly inside the cage...all the things goes upside down...I shout as loud as I can, the stupid YING laughing at me...after shouting for so long, i realize I'm so funny of shouting that loud, wahahaha...but the strees was gone...totally gone..I think I should try on more excited game if i got the chance again...I Know I Am PENAKUT...wahahaha...
Pay RM3 for the entrance fees, pay RM6 for only a game...we headed back to JUSCO to grab ourself a drink from starbuck...finally i got mine caramel macchitto after so long, but the taste over there was a bit different, not that nice like what i usually have from other places...than we pack ourself a 7inch pizza, nice and delicious pizza from Bukit Tinggi JUSCO...
OH MY GOD, can you believe that we eat non stop when we hang together while we keep mentioning that we need diet? but is ok, as long as we are happy with it... (atleast I still lost few KGs already ma)
wah, i'm so tired, so sleepy but I'm still blogging here...too excited for the whole, too happy and too enjoy...I love my friday, I love 31st October...(HAPPY BIRTHDAY to YOU)
Good Night People...I'm sleepy and I'm tired...
To The Someone:
haha, another way of releasing strees is by shouting...a better way than drinking, crying and missing you...wahaha...
anyway, thanks for offering me your hand, your shouder and your eye for seeing me typing my complain...but i don't think i need it for quite sometimes la..thank so much also...wahahah...
and, dun miss me too much or else you will get addicted, MR 7-eleven...
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
29/10/2008
Today, I have so much to say, so many feelings to share with, but i seem cant't put all that into word....
There is a sadness and emptiness goes around me again and again...and i do not know what was happening actually, i'm just so balck, so vacant..
I been thinking about everythings that happened in this past few years and even the past 20days...not any single tear runs down my cheek...i been thinking of him the whole day, every single word that he had said, everythings single things that he had done to me...i realize, there is so much lie on him actually, especially those bad 20days, i'm just wonder how can he been telling so much lie yet he can still pretend that he are the right one...he can still pretend that he done nothing wrong and he can even pretend and yell at me telling me that what he said is TRUE...he never feel shameful on his own lie...and he is enjoying fooling on me and cheating on me...all the things he said keep repeating in my mind, but it doesn't mean that i miss him and it surely won't be i still love him...i'm just wonder, what was the purpose for him to be a liar...
But, that was not important anymore, i think i let it go earlier on, so i got no much feelings on what feelings, what word i had by now...it is so annoying for me to think so actually...
Everyone say that i recover faster than what had they expected, i use less than a month to cope with all this, to stand with all this, and i'm still so fine for who i am now, i'm so glad bout it...
They expected I will still be crying, I will still be very moody, yes no doubt, i'm might be moody sometime, but he is not the main purpose for me to feel sad, JUST, nothing go right in my mind...
I stay tough for who I am and what I am now...
Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened
There is a sadness and emptiness goes around me again and again...and i do not know what was happening actually, i'm just so balck, so vacant..
I been thinking about everythings that happened in this past few years and even the past 20days...not any single tear runs down my cheek...i been thinking of him the whole day, every single word that he had said, everythings single things that he had done to me...i realize, there is so much lie on him actually, especially those bad 20days, i'm just wonder how can he been telling so much lie yet he can still pretend that he are the right one...he can still pretend that he done nothing wrong and he can even pretend and yell at me telling me that what he said is TRUE...he never feel shameful on his own lie...and he is enjoying fooling on me and cheating on me...all the things he said keep repeating in my mind, but it doesn't mean that i miss him and it surely won't be i still love him...i'm just wonder, what was the purpose for him to be a liar...
But, that was not important anymore, i think i let it go earlier on, so i got no much feelings on what feelings, what word i had by now...it is so annoying for me to think so actually...
Everyone say that i recover faster than what had they expected, i use less than a month to cope with all this, to stand with all this, and i'm still so fine for who i am now, i'm so glad bout it...
They expected I will still be crying, I will still be very moody, yes no doubt, i'm might be moody sometime, but he is not the main purpose for me to feel sad, JUST, nothing go right in my mind...
I stay tough for who I am and what I am now...
Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
28/10/2008
Taken so much pic of myself recently...
The pale me...look so cacat in this picture...crying for so long after the break up before i know and realize everythings..
The recent one...taken on sunday before i went for the dinner...i think i'm attractive enought to get someone better than him...(pai seh, pai seh)
Will upload more picture if i got the time...
The pale me...look so cacat in this picture...crying for so long after the break up before i know and realize everythings..
Recovering. after being such a fool for 20days....feel better in this picture...can breathe nicely,can eat, can drink...i'm enjoying every moment without him, i suppose..
The recent one...taken on sunday before i went for the dinner...i think i'm attractive enought to get someone better than him...(pai seh, pai seh)Will upload more picture if i got the time...
27/10/2008
went TTDI plaza to have a drink just now...i don't like club, i prefer lounge bar...
I know I cant drink, i can even feel drunk when i drank only half bottle of beer, so i never order alcohol drink just now, but some kind of fruit juice i order..ya la ya la, i know i'm lousy enough la...wahaha...just cant stand for the smell, the taste and the feeling of alcohol..*suffer*
went for a wedding dinner last night, it make me think of many things again and again...what surprising me is, i never ever feel sad anymore, not even a moment..i enjoy myself with the video, the music and the enviroment there...so relaxing and i feel glad and happy for the new couples...congratulation..
get so much news about him recently from his family, he bring the girl back to his house finally, so fast i thought...but none of my business and i got no feeling on it anymore...just all the best to him and hope he really get what he actually want...
read a meningful blog from somebody few days ago, she write out all my feeling..
"Things always turn out the other way which is out of our expectation. It take 5 years or even more to start and to maintain a relationship yet it takes only 5minutes to end it. I know it sound dramatic but its really happened in real life. Stopping yourself to do somethings you like will make you unhappy for the times being but stopping yourself to love someone you love is definitely not an easy task. It needs lots of courage and firmness to make such an unpleasant decison. And picking up the broken pieces once again will surely takes a longer healing time than ever. We will never move on with our life if we never let it go. Try your best. No matter how long its takes to get over someone, we are the one who is in the driving seat of your misery. Never get things twisted because it's not him to stop you from moving on yet we are the one who is still engaging and allowing them to mess with our mind..Be tough, Be strong..."
although i take almost 4 years to maintain a relationship, but i do need time to heal as well...i will never hate him for being unfaithful, but i should thank him for letting me to learn to be independent...i grow up alot, never ever drop my tears anymore for someone like him, not worth and its only wasted my energy of crying for someone who had so much lie on him...
Is better for me to let go earlier and move on with my life..and i believe i will be more enjoyable without him cause i got no more control from him anymore...laughther and much joy i had now...
当依靠的肩膀不再， 当我的眼泪流干，当我决定放手，我的心已不在了！！
I know I cant drink, i can even feel drunk when i drank only half bottle of beer, so i never order alcohol drink just now, but some kind of fruit juice i order..ya la ya la, i know i'm lousy enough la...wahaha...just cant stand for the smell, the taste and the feeling of alcohol..*suffer*
went for a wedding dinner last night, it make me think of many things again and again...what surprising me is, i never ever feel sad anymore, not even a moment..i enjoy myself with the video, the music and the enviroment there...so relaxing and i feel glad and happy for the new couples...congratulation..
get so much news about him recently from his family, he bring the girl back to his house finally, so fast i thought...but none of my business and i got no feeling on it anymore...just all the best to him and hope he really get what he actually want...
read a meningful blog from somebody few days ago, she write out all my feeling..
"Things always turn out the other way which is out of our expectation. It take 5 years or even more to start and to maintain a relationship yet it takes only 5minutes to end it. I know it sound dramatic but its really happened in real life. Stopping yourself to do somethings you like will make you unhappy for the times being but stopping yourself to love someone you love is definitely not an easy task. It needs lots of courage and firmness to make such an unpleasant decison. And picking up the broken pieces once again will surely takes a longer healing time than ever. We will never move on with our life if we never let it go. Try your best. No matter how long its takes to get over someone, we are the one who is in the driving seat of your misery. Never get things twisted because it's not him to stop you from moving on yet we are the one who is still engaging and allowing them to mess with our mind..Be tough, Be strong..."
although i take almost 4 years to maintain a relationship, but i do need time to heal as well...i will never hate him for being unfaithful, but i should thank him for letting me to learn to be independent...i grow up alot, never ever drop my tears anymore for someone like him, not worth and its only wasted my energy of crying for someone who had so much lie on him...
Is better for me to let go earlier and move on with my life..and i believe i will be more enjoyable without him cause i got no more control from him anymore...laughther and much joy i had now...
当依靠的肩膀不再， 当我的眼泪流干，当我决定放手，我的心已不在了！！
Thursday, October 23, 2008
23/10/2008
complicated feelings and mood i had today...
i'm thinking of to start a new relationship, but i was afraid of the feelings so much, really feel so scrae of the feelings once i think bout it...it hurt me a lot, it take sometime for me to stand for it, it take sometime for me to negotiate with it, i hate that feelings...
the feelings was so bad actually, im trying so hard not to think bout it anymore, the most i pretend, the more sadness i will get it in the end...
i wonder, what was happening to me actually,
i wonder, what was happening actually,
i wonder, is there solution for all the problems...
i need some secure, some useful secure..
i got no idea about how long i will take to start a new relationship, perhaps it might take quite sometime i should say...and i dun think my maturity by now is enough for me to start a new one or even suit myself with another one...
i dunno who should i share my feelings with, i wonder whether they really understand my feelings...i dunno how...the word HURT was deep inside my heart...i dunno how many times i should cry for the past, i dunno by how only i can stop of thinking those bad days...i hardly remember those sweet memories, all in my mind by now was the word he use to hurt me, scold me and so on...i wonder how can i cope with it, i really dunno, and i need to know...
i laugh out loudly when i hang out with friends, i was crazing around like a monkey, i do as much things as i can, i hang out as late as i can, that the way for me right now, i think...
i need some place to shout out as loud as i can,
i need some place some music that can make me cry out as long as i can,
i need someone shoulder who can lend me whenever i need it....
i need someone to hug me tightly when i need convince...
i need i need i need i need i need i need i need SOMEBODY....
i realize i got so much protection since im young, i scare to be hurt actually, and the feelings was so bad actually...i rather to hide all my feelings, i feel so scare to tell anyone actually...i rather to hide all it, i rather im the only one who know all about it, im not pity at all, just i need time..i really dunno how long it will take...all the damm feelings just come back in a sudden..
so many things i want to know but i was afraid to know bout it also...i dunno how...
deleted everythings bout him, photo, message, email and everythings...
i wonder is this the best way...
i wonder is there still somebody will be faithful in LOVE..
i wonder is there still somebody who willing to love me, pamper me, taking care of me as much as they can?
i wonder is there still someone i will fall for him so much...
i wonder is there still someone who will not hurt me like how much he had done...
i wonder i wonder and i wonder...
I don't really know actually...
I really feel tired in this 4years, I feel so tired for everythings epescially those 20 bad damm days..
FRUSTRATED of everythings...
断了联络，断了思念，最后的希望也灰飞湮灭，心已疲倦，痛吗？
我不懂，也不想懂！！
i'm thinking of to start a new relationship, but i was afraid of the feelings so much, really feel so scrae of the feelings once i think bout it...it hurt me a lot, it take sometime for me to stand for it, it take sometime for me to negotiate with it, i hate that feelings...
the feelings was so bad actually, im trying so hard not to think bout it anymore, the most i pretend, the more sadness i will get it in the end...
i wonder, what was happening to me actually,
i wonder, what was happening actually,
i wonder, is there solution for all the problems...
i need some secure, some useful secure..
i got no idea about how long i will take to start a new relationship, perhaps it might take quite sometime i should say...and i dun think my maturity by now is enough for me to start a new one or even suit myself with another one...
i dunno who should i share my feelings with, i wonder whether they really understand my feelings...i dunno how...the word HURT was deep inside my heart...i dunno how many times i should cry for the past, i dunno by how only i can stop of thinking those bad days...i hardly remember those sweet memories, all in my mind by now was the word he use to hurt me, scold me and so on...i wonder how can i cope with it, i really dunno, and i need to know...
i laugh out loudly when i hang out with friends, i was crazing around like a monkey, i do as much things as i can, i hang out as late as i can, that the way for me right now, i think...
i need some place to shout out as loud as i can,
i need some place some music that can make me cry out as long as i can,
i need someone shoulder who can lend me whenever i need it....
i need someone to hug me tightly when i need convince...
i need i need i need i need i need i need i need SOMEBODY....
i realize i got so much protection since im young, i scare to be hurt actually, and the feelings was so bad actually...i rather to hide all my feelings, i feel so scare to tell anyone actually...i rather to hide all it, i rather im the only one who know all about it, im not pity at all, just i need time..i really dunno how long it will take...all the damm feelings just come back in a sudden..
so many things i want to know but i was afraid to know bout it also...i dunno how...
deleted everythings bout him, photo, message, email and everythings...
i wonder is this the best way...
i wonder is there still somebody will be faithful in LOVE..
i wonder is there still somebody who willing to love me, pamper me, taking care of me as much as they can?
i wonder is there still someone i will fall for him so much...
i wonder is there still someone who will not hurt me like how much he had done...
i wonder i wonder and i wonder...
I don't really know actually...
I really feel tired in this 4years, I feel so tired for everythings epescially those 20 bad damm days..
FRUSTRATED of everythings...
断了联络，断了思念，最后的希望也灰飞湮灭，心已疲倦，痛吗？
我不懂，也不想懂！！
23/10/2008
30days = 1 Month
1Month without YOU...
so much things happen in this 1 month...times flew...
i realize i can enjoy without you, my life full of joys and more laughther without you...
我恨你最后一句 “我爱你”
1Month without YOU...
so much things happen in this 1 month...times flew...
i realize i can enjoy without you, my life full of joys and more laughther without you...
我恨你最后一句 “我爱你”
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
爱情，什么东西！！
如果你不爱一个人，请放手，好让别人有机会爱她。
如果你爱的人放弃了你，请放开自己，好让自己有机会爱别人有的东西,你再喜欢也不会属於你的，有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的。
人生中有许多种爱，但别让爱成为一种伤害。
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的，爱一个人不一定要拥有，但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱他。
男人哭了，是因为他真的爱了；
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了。
如果失去是苦，你怕不怕付出；
如果迷乱是苦，你会不会选择结束；
如果追求是苦，你会不会选择执迷不悟；
如果分离是苦，你要向谁倾诉。
好多事情都是后来才看清楚，
好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦，
然而我已经找不到来时的路 。
有一种爱,
明明是深爱,却说不出来有一种爱,
明明想放弃,却无法放弃有一种爱,
明知是煎熬,却又躱不开有一种爱,
明知无前路心却早已收不回来 。
什么是勇气？
是哭着要你爱我，还是哭着让你离开？
为什么我们总是不懂得珍惜眼前人？
在未可预知的重逢里，我们以为总会重逢，
总会有缘再会，总以为有机会说一声对不起，
却从没想过每一次挥手道别，都可能是诀别，
一声叹息，都可能是人间最后的一声叹息。
也许爱情只是因为寂寞，需要找一个人来爱，即使没有任何结局。
伤口是别人给与的耻辱，自己坚持的幻觉。
像我这样的人，总是以一个难题的形式出现在感情里。
发现自己只能爱一个人在一瞬间。
而且渐渐变的自私。
很多人不需要再见，因为只是路过而已。
遗忘就是我们给彼此最好的纪念。
爱可以是一瞬间的事情，也可以是一辈子的事情。
每个人都可以在不同的时间爱上不同的人。
不是谁离开了谁就无法生活，遗忘让我们坚强。
人这样的生物，仔细一看，原来是伤痕累累的。
是否被爱，每个人有不同的感受。
重寻旧梦的代价往往是我们付不起的。
人世间的幸福，总会令人好看一点。
因为微笑，我才了解爱。
身上一切，看似不经意，却是我苦心经营，希望你快乐。
世事其实都是在它适当的时候降临，只是我们没有适当的心情去迎接它。
“因为爱他，所以离开他。”我喜欢这句话。
有些感情如此直接和残酷。容不下任何迂回曲折的温暖。
带着温暖的心情离开，要比苍白的真相要好，纯粹的东西死的太快了。
感情被懂得是一种幸福，
等待着被懂得是一种孤独
如果你爱的人放弃了你，请放开自己，好让自己有机会爱别人有的东西,你再喜欢也不会属於你的，有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的。
人生中有许多种爱，但别让爱成为一种伤害。
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的，爱一个人不一定要拥有，但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱他。
男人哭了，是因为他真的爱了；
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了。
如果失去是苦，你怕不怕付出；
如果迷乱是苦，你会不会选择结束；
如果追求是苦，你会不会选择执迷不悟；
如果分离是苦，你要向谁倾诉。
好多事情都是后来才看清楚，
好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦，
然而我已经找不到来时的路 。
有一种爱,
明明是深爱,却说不出来有一种爱,
明明想放弃,却无法放弃有一种爱,
明知是煎熬,却又躱不开有一种爱,
明知无前路心却早已收不回来 。
什么是勇气？
是哭着要你爱我，还是哭着让你离开？
为什么我们总是不懂得珍惜眼前人？
在未可预知的重逢里，我们以为总会重逢，
总会有缘再会，总以为有机会说一声对不起，
却从没想过每一次挥手道别，都可能是诀别，
一声叹息，都可能是人间最后的一声叹息。
也许爱情只是因为寂寞，需要找一个人来爱，即使没有任何结局。
伤口是别人给与的耻辱，自己坚持的幻觉。
像我这样的人，总是以一个难题的形式出现在感情里。
发现自己只能爱一个人在一瞬间。
而且渐渐变的自私。
很多人不需要再见，因为只是路过而已。
遗忘就是我们给彼此最好的纪念。
爱可以是一瞬间的事情，也可以是一辈子的事情。
每个人都可以在不同的时间爱上不同的人。
不是谁离开了谁就无法生活，遗忘让我们坚强。
人这样的生物，仔细一看，原来是伤痕累累的。
是否被爱，每个人有不同的感受。
重寻旧梦的代价往往是我们付不起的。
人世间的幸福，总会令人好看一点。
因为微笑，我才了解爱。
身上一切，看似不经意，却是我苦心经营，希望你快乐。
世事其实都是在它适当的时候降临，只是我们没有适当的心情去迎接它。
“因为爱他，所以离开他。”我喜欢这句话。
有些感情如此直接和残酷。容不下任何迂回曲折的温暖。
带着温暖的心情离开，要比苍白的真相要好，纯粹的东西死的太快了。
感情被懂得是一种幸福，
等待着被懂得是一种孤独
Monday, October 20, 2008
20/10/2008
矛盾的或许不是我，该说对不起的或许不是你，更不会是我，我不是受害者，我才是胜利的哪一个！！原来我真的不伤心，我只是不舍得，我只是痛心，为何你会变成这样！！不过这一切都与我无关了！！我原来复原的比我想象中的还要快，知道事实了以后，眼泪真的再也流不出来的，我只怪自己给你太多的信任，明知那是事实，我却一次又一次的选择相信你，而你却一次又一次的讲骗话，伤害我！！让我知道了事实，我真的不伤心，那是我最后为我们这段感情流的泪，从今以后都不会为你，为这段感情留下任何一滴的眼泪，因为你不值得！！
或许那20天真得很恐怖，不过至少让我看清了你到底是怎样的一个人，我不是你的玩偶，不是你随随便便就可以拿来出气的东西，不是你爱骂就骂我的玩偶，我有我的生活，我有我的自尊，请你尊重你自己，也请你尊重我，我会感激你的！！
有个人曾经告诉我，你的他如果背叛了你，他就不值得你为他在等待，一段感情是该有信任的，但这并不代表你可以麻木的相信他，麻木的相信这样的一个他，到最后，受伤的就只有自己！！而我，却只有在受伤害过后才了解到这一切，不过至少我还是清新的，我并没有在继续相信这样的一个他！！没有了信任的感情，就真的什么也不再存在了！！他如果选择了背叛你，未来的他，也一定还会重复这样的一个事实，那我还在犹豫些什么，等待些什么！！
我在等待的只是一个值得让我相信的人，等待的是一个更值得我去爱的人，等待的是一个更会珍惜我的人，而我相信这样的一个他，一定会出现的！！
或许我不是最好的，或许我不是最温柔体贴的，或许我不是最美的，又或许很多很多，但我绝对不会背叛任何一段感情，从来也没有！！以前不会，现在不会，以后更不会，因为我不是一个对感情不负责任的人！！
if someone used to be unfaithful in a relationship, there is no more U turn for him or her to come back, he or she will do the same damm things even after marriage!! i choose to let go, i choose to give up, i choose to live more happily and i believe that i deserve to have a better one in the future...
放弃，只因为爱得太深，爱太深，才对自己没把握，要用放弃做赌注，输了，只因为对方不够爱你
或许那20天真得很恐怖，不过至少让我看清了你到底是怎样的一个人，我不是你的玩偶，不是你随随便便就可以拿来出气的东西，不是你爱骂就骂我的玩偶，我有我的生活，我有我的自尊，请你尊重你自己，也请你尊重我，我会感激你的！！
有个人曾经告诉我，你的他如果背叛了你，他就不值得你为他在等待，一段感情是该有信任的，但这并不代表你可以麻木的相信他，麻木的相信这样的一个他，到最后，受伤的就只有自己！！而我，却只有在受伤害过后才了解到这一切，不过至少我还是清新的，我并没有在继续相信这样的一个他！！没有了信任的感情，就真的什么也不再存在了！！他如果选择了背叛你，未来的他，也一定还会重复这样的一个事实，那我还在犹豫些什么，等待些什么！！
我在等待的只是一个值得让我相信的人，等待的是一个更值得我去爱的人，等待的是一个更会珍惜我的人，而我相信这样的一个他，一定会出现的！！
或许我不是最好的，或许我不是最温柔体贴的，或许我不是最美的，又或许很多很多，但我绝对不会背叛任何一段感情，从来也没有！！以前不会，现在不会，以后更不会，因为我不是一个对感情不负责任的人！！
if someone used to be unfaithful in a relationship, there is no more U turn for him or her to come back, he or she will do the same damm things even after marriage!! i choose to let go, i choose to give up, i choose to live more happily and i believe that i deserve to have a better one in the future...
放弃，只因为爱得太深，爱太深，才对自己没把握，要用放弃做赌注，输了，只因为对方不够爱你
Better In Time by Leona Lewis
It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Go in, come in
Thought I heard a knock
Who's there? No one
Thinking that I deserved it
Now I realize that I really didn'y know
You didn't notice, you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning, to love again
All I knowi is, I'll be ok
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals to
It'll all get better in time
Eventhough I really love you
I gonna smile cause i deserve to
It'll all get better in time
How could I turn on the tv
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside ypur feelings
If I'm dreaming
Dont't wanna let, hurt my feelings
But that the path, I believe in
And i know that, time will heal it
You didn't notice, you mean everthing
Quickly I'm learning, to love again
All I know is, I'll be ok
Thought I couldn't live without you,
It's gonna hurt when it heals to
Eventhough I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
Since theres no more you and me
It's time I let you go so I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without
YES I WILL
Thought I couldn't live without you
Its gonna hurt when it heals to
It'll all get better in time
Eventhough I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
" the moments you're telling me that all my fault, that all my problem at the begining, I was blaming on myself for so long, I try to repair, I try to solve it and I try to change it..untill I realize that was not my fault actually...you're blaming on me to make yourself feel better..how selfish are you actually...everytime i was listening to this song, my tears dropped again and again, i really miss you that moments...untill i knew the truth, i'm lucky i knew the truth earlier, so i wont get hurt for that long....i just could not believe that i can recover that fast than i had expected..i'm glad that i know how are you behaving all this while, i should thanks to god for letting me know earlier, although i'm suffering for 20days...I'm Happy with my life without you, seriously"
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Go in, come in
Thought I heard a knock
Who's there? No one
Thinking that I deserved it
Now I realize that I really didn'y know
You didn't notice, you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning, to love again
All I knowi is, I'll be ok
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals to
It'll all get better in time
Eventhough I really love you
I gonna smile cause i deserve to
It'll all get better in time
How could I turn on the tv
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside ypur feelings
If I'm dreaming
Dont't wanna let, hurt my feelings
But that the path, I believe in
And i know that, time will heal it
You didn't notice, you mean everthing
Quickly I'm learning, to love again
All I know is, I'll be ok
Thought I couldn't live without you,
It's gonna hurt when it heals to
Eventhough I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
Since theres no more you and me
It's time I let you go so I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without
YES I WILL
Thought I couldn't live without you
Its gonna hurt when it heals to
It'll all get better in time
Eventhough I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
" the moments you're telling me that all my fault, that all my problem at the begining, I was blaming on myself for so long, I try to repair, I try to solve it and I try to change it..untill I realize that was not my fault actually...you're blaming on me to make yourself feel better..how selfish are you actually...everytime i was listening to this song, my tears dropped again and again, i really miss you that moments...untill i knew the truth, i'm lucky i knew the truth earlier, so i wont get hurt for that long....i just could not believe that i can recover that fast than i had expected..i'm glad that i know how are you behaving all this while, i should thanks to god for letting me know earlier, although i'm suffering for 20days...I'm Happy with my life without you, seriously"
Friday, October 17, 2008
17/10/2008
I miss you but not YOU!!!!
went to pavilion today, spend a lot of money but i'm happy with it...i need no permission, i need no controlling by someone anymore, i got my freedom, and i'm enjoying myself so much....spend all my precious time with my friends and also my dearest family...
on my diet plan recently...as what i had promised Mr. R, i will went for a photoshooting by him after a month, which i hope my plan will be success...haha, he promise to take some nice and pretty photo for me, he promise to give it as my very very late 21st birthday present..haha, but Mr. R, don't put the title as "lonely Girl" because i'm not lonely at all ma...no worries, after a month we will see the results...i will get my confident back and i will be as pretty as i wishes, wahahaha...you better prepare to capture the nice photo of me, if not leh...you will know...
mummy want me to pack all my collection of teddy bears into a big boxes and place it in the store, included the bear he given to me...i thought i will be feeling sad, i'm not actually..i thought i can sleep well while i'm hugging that bear, but i sleep even better when i throw it aside...the only things i feel "bu she de" is all mine collection of McD teddy bears..dont throw them away can ah, they will miss me wan lo...pack everythings of him into a big boxes last week as well, i don't need anythings from him anymore...never been this hurt before, and i believe i deserve a better one, even a perfect wan..
planning to continue my study back ASAP, feel like going to oversea, new life, new enviroment, new friends, and everythings are NEW...
i lost a BF, but i have a lots of friends...a lots of friends who i can share everythings, a lots of friends who i can chat with them till late night...that why i said "I'm not lonely although i got my freedome" ma.....that why i realize, we should enjoy while we are young...
life no take 2 ma...
这是你的选择，也是你做的选择，你要的选择，尊重你的选择！！做了的选择，希望这才是你真正要的，你觉得你会更开心的！！做了的选择，就不要后悔！！
went to pavilion today, spend a lot of money but i'm happy with it...i need no permission, i need no controlling by someone anymore, i got my freedom, and i'm enjoying myself so much....spend all my precious time with my friends and also my dearest family...
on my diet plan recently...as what i had promised Mr. R, i will went for a photoshooting by him after a month, which i hope my plan will be success...haha, he promise to take some nice and pretty photo for me, he promise to give it as my very very late 21st birthday present..haha, but Mr. R, don't put the title as "lonely Girl" because i'm not lonely at all ma...no worries, after a month we will see the results...i will get my confident back and i will be as pretty as i wishes, wahahaha...you better prepare to capture the nice photo of me, if not leh...you will know...
mummy want me to pack all my collection of teddy bears into a big boxes and place it in the store, included the bear he given to me...i thought i will be feeling sad, i'm not actually..i thought i can sleep well while i'm hugging that bear, but i sleep even better when i throw it aside...the only things i feel "bu she de" is all mine collection of McD teddy bears..dont throw them away can ah, they will miss me wan lo...pack everythings of him into a big boxes last week as well, i don't need anythings from him anymore...never been this hurt before, and i believe i deserve a better one, even a perfect wan..
planning to continue my study back ASAP, feel like going to oversea, new life, new enviroment, new friends, and everythings are NEW...
i lost a BF, but i have a lots of friends...a lots of friends who i can share everythings, a lots of friends who i can chat with them till late night...that why i said "I'm not lonely although i got my freedome" ma.....that why i realize, we should enjoy while we are young...
life no take 2 ma...
这是你的选择，也是你做的选择，你要的选择，尊重你的选择！！做了的选择，希望这才是你真正要的，你觉得你会更开心的！！做了的选择，就不要后悔！！
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
15/10/2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MT DEAREST DADDY
its been quite some time since i last updated..been quite desperate of so much things lately, but now I'm so much better...single life is enjoy actually...i have so much fun this few days...wahahaha
I went for K session twice within 3days, and i really enjoy it...the very first time i been signing non stop from the beginning to the end, the feelings are awesome...
thanks to those who bring me out when I'm so down, thanks for spending precious time for me and i really appreciate for it...
first time when K buffet with "virgin" and i would say the feelings is just perfect...haha...having a lots of fun although i reach home quite late...exhausted but i really enjoy all the time..
so many upcoming plan waiting for me, i think i will be no time to think of you, and i believe that i will be so fine without you...i should enjoy my single life after so long...
People always say that "how much freedom you have mean how lonely you're"
no doubt, i'm having mine freedom but i can say I'M NOT LONELY at all, there is so many people around me who can pamper me so much, who can accompany me more than you do, and i really enjoy with lifes like this...
there will be more fun and more luck in my life, i believe...
do whatever you wan, say whatever you like and its was none of my business anymore...i'm enough of being such a fool in the past 20days and thank for giving me such a memories...you make me grow up, because of you, i learn to be independent, because of you, i found out that there are people who care for me more than you do, because of you, i learn a lots of things...
that what you had choose from the beginning, so appreciate what you have now!!!
bless that u will have your happiness...take care
its been quite some time since i last updated..been quite desperate of so much things lately, but now I'm so much better...single life is enjoy actually...i have so much fun this few days...wahahaha
I went for K session twice within 3days, and i really enjoy it...the very first time i been signing non stop from the beginning to the end, the feelings are awesome...
thanks to those who bring me out when I'm so down, thanks for spending precious time for me and i really appreciate for it...
first time when K buffet with "virgin" and i would say the feelings is just perfect...haha...having a lots of fun although i reach home quite late...exhausted but i really enjoy all the time..
so many upcoming plan waiting for me, i think i will be no time to think of you, and i believe that i will be so fine without you...i should enjoy my single life after so long...
People always say that "how much freedom you have mean how lonely you're"
no doubt, i'm having mine freedom but i can say I'M NOT LONELY at all, there is so many people around me who can pamper me so much, who can accompany me more than you do, and i really enjoy with lifes like this...
there will be more fun and more luck in my life, i believe...
do whatever you wan, say whatever you like and its was none of my business anymore...i'm enough of being such a fool in the past 20days and thank for giving me such a memories...you make me grow up, because of you, i learn to be independent, because of you, i found out that there are people who care for me more than you do, because of you, i learn a lots of things...
that what you had choose from the beginning, so appreciate what you have now!!!
bless that u will have your happiness...take care
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
说好的 幸福呢
你的绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我像气氛纯白的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
继续莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
一开始都不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这 真的痛了
怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心依稀数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不懂了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
怎么了 你累了
说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了
爱淡了 梦远了
我都还记得
为什么这时候忍心离我而去☆..
addicted to this song so much especially the lyrics..
although i dun really like MR JAY, but i still fall so much for this song...
suit my feelings so well
在这个时刻
我像气氛纯白的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
继续莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
一开始都不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这 真的痛了
怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心依稀数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不懂了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
怎么了 你累了
说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了
爱淡了 梦远了
我都还记得
为什么这时候忍心离我而去☆..
addicted to this song so much especially the lyrics..
although i dun really like MR JAY, but i still fall so much for this song...
suit my feelings so well
Sunday, October 12, 2008
12/10/2008
今天将会是我最后一次对你说“我爱你”。。
原来我做了这么久的笨蛋，原来我被你的谎言骗了一次又一次，这次我真的决定要把你忘记，我决定把你从我的生命里给消除掉，因为你真的不值得我这样的做，你不值得我为你伤心，你更不值得我为你流泪！！
别再告诉我，我不够完美，我不够温柔体贴，我对你不够好，我让你感觉不到我爱你，我不够关心你，这是因为你没在用心的对我，你没在用心看待我对你的一切,你没在用心看到我对你的一切，你只会认为，你对我好，你对我很关心，你很爱我，你很关心我，可是，你的这一切却只让我感到你的自私而已！！你从来就只会觉得你的付出有多少，你疼我都多少，你的一切有多少多少，而你却从来不会了解别人为你做了又有多少！！你的眼中从来就只有你自己！！
对你，我真的够了。你的自私，也够了。你的谎言，也够了。你对我的伤害，也真的够了！！别再告诉我你不想伤害我，你从一开始，从你一开始的谎言，你就已经在伤害我了！！曾经，我还以为我真的对你不够好，我真的不值得你在爱我，原来这不是主要的原因，而是你变心了！！还有别再告诉我，你是因为我对你不够好，你才会爱上她，真的够了，对你的谎言，真的够了！！
现在的我在知道，你愿来有这么的浪漫，你愿来这么的有文才，你愿来这么的会写blog!! 可是这一切，你都是为了你的P, 为了你认识一个月的她！！
你说了，这是你为她准备你一生人里，最用心，最sweet 的礼物，haha 更可笑的是，这4年来你也从来没有为我准备过这样的一个礼物，因为你会觉得说浪费时间，浪费金钱。就连我为你准备的礼物，情侣衣也好，我为你写的日记本也好，你也没有用心的在看待，很可笑吧！！
你要为她，你要帮她医治她受过伤的心，她曾付出却得不到回报的心，你还说你绝对不会是哪个“他", 但你早在不知不觉中当了你说的那个"他"！！！别在告诉我，她并不适合你，你对她只是internet的玩玩而已，我也曾经以为是真的，我还傻到相信你，一直到我发现你的blog。。才发现你原来一直隐藏了很多很多的谎言，更恐怖的是，你还想继续的讲骗话，你还想告诉我你和她就只是玩玩而已，你还告诉我，你爱我，你还要我当你的宝贝！！4年了，我才发觉，原来你是这样一个可以随随便便就说我爱你的人！！我决定放手，放弃这样的一个你，你变得好陌生，你变得好有距离感，你满脑的谎言，你说了很多很伤我的心的话，你说了很多的骗话，你真的很不一样了，你真的不同了！
别告诉我，她并不适合你，她并不是你要的那一个，可是你为她做的一切，不久证明了一切吗？ 你不爱她，你会为她做哪么的多吗？就连情人节的chocolate也是我要你买给我的，很可笑吧？
你也从来不会在msn陪我聊天，你对我从来都没有耐心过，你从来都不回像你对她一样的那么对我，4年了，却也抵不过短短的一个月！！哈哈。。你真的很好笑！！
原来我才知道，你是多么的浪漫，愿来我才知道你只这么的回说甜言蜜语，原来我爱知道，为了她，你可以有着么多的改变，原来我才知道，你比较珍惜得来不易的她，原来我才知道，你这么的爱她！！
或许对你来说，我们的一切根本都不重要，重要的事你有了她！！我更知道你不伤心，因为你有了她，你有了一个更好的寄托！！
对于这样的一个你，我真的不爱了，我决定放手，把属于你的一切还给你，把属于她的你还给你，把你需要的一切还给你，希望她会是你正真想要的那一个，她会是你想要保护的那一个，她更会是你想要为她努力的那一个！！
祝福你，希望你真的会开心，会快乐，会幸福！！
dun put all the blame on me anymore, dun blame that because of me i get this situation like this, dun put all the blame on me when i found out that you actually do somthings wrong also...dun ever blame on ppl that they misunderstand you because of me ok? i never do anythings...
yes,we might fight everytime, we might quarrel, i might scolded you, and you scolded me like hell as well, this the way we communicate for 4 years, i respect you so far, but you never pay the same, you keep on lying, treating me like a fool....fooling on me in the past 20days...i choose to believe you again and again like what i always do before, but the reality is always cruel...i found out the truth again and again by myself, and i think this the fate, this the destiny, and i choose to believe on that blog you created for her at last....i give up, i choose not to love you anymore, but i will never hate you, i dun wan to make myself and my life so tiring....
yes, i might do somethings that is so wrong in our relationship, but dun put all the blame on me ok? if we can pass through all this while, and i really thought of changing, why not this time?you change because of her, you change untill you met her, so dun ever put the blame on me anymore ok?
and im enough of your everything this 20days, please stop scolding like nobody business when you are in bad mood or when you make her angry, please stop scolding me with those rude word, this will only make things even worst...try some better way to release your anger when you are in very bad mood....
please change your temper if you really want to get PEGGY...
and from now on, i will disappears in your life, and i will remove you from my mind...
i believe that i can life so fine without you, my like will be even enjoyable without you...
thank for giving me the past 4 years and the terrible 20days...i appreciate what you have gave me, i learn a lot from you...
take care and bye bye
原来我做了这么久的笨蛋，原来我被你的谎言骗了一次又一次，这次我真的决定要把你忘记，我决定把你从我的生命里给消除掉，因为你真的不值得我这样的做，你不值得我为你伤心，你更不值得我为你流泪！！
别再告诉我，我不够完美，我不够温柔体贴，我对你不够好，我让你感觉不到我爱你，我不够关心你，这是因为你没在用心的对我，你没在用心看待我对你的一切,你没在用心看到我对你的一切，你只会认为，你对我好，你对我很关心，你很爱我，你很关心我，可是，你的这一切却只让我感到你的自私而已！！你从来就只会觉得你的付出有多少，你疼我都多少，你的一切有多少多少，而你却从来不会了解别人为你做了又有多少！！你的眼中从来就只有你自己！！
对你，我真的够了。你的自私，也够了。你的谎言，也够了。你对我的伤害，也真的够了！！别再告诉我你不想伤害我，你从一开始，从你一开始的谎言，你就已经在伤害我了！！曾经，我还以为我真的对你不够好，我真的不值得你在爱我，原来这不是主要的原因，而是你变心了！！还有别再告诉我，你是因为我对你不够好，你才会爱上她，真的够了，对你的谎言，真的够了！！
现在的我在知道，你愿来有这么的浪漫，你愿来这么的有文才，你愿来这么的会写blog!! 可是这一切，你都是为了你的P, 为了你认识一个月的她！！
你说了，这是你为她准备你一生人里，最用心，最sweet 的礼物，haha 更可笑的是，这4年来你也从来没有为我准备过这样的一个礼物，因为你会觉得说浪费时间，浪费金钱。就连我为你准备的礼物，情侣衣也好，我为你写的日记本也好，你也没有用心的在看待，很可笑吧！！
你要为她，你要帮她医治她受过伤的心，她曾付出却得不到回报的心，你还说你绝对不会是哪个“他", 但你早在不知不觉中当了你说的那个"他"！！！别在告诉我，她并不适合你，你对她只是internet的玩玩而已，我也曾经以为是真的，我还傻到相信你，一直到我发现你的blog。。才发现你原来一直隐藏了很多很多的谎言，更恐怖的是，你还想继续的讲骗话，你还想告诉我你和她就只是玩玩而已，你还告诉我，你爱我，你还要我当你的宝贝！！4年了，我才发觉，原来你是这样一个可以随随便便就说我爱你的人！！我决定放手，放弃这样的一个你，你变得好陌生，你变得好有距离感，你满脑的谎言，你说了很多很伤我的心的话，你说了很多的骗话，你真的很不一样了，你真的不同了！
别告诉我，她并不适合你，她并不是你要的那一个，可是你为她做的一切，不久证明了一切吗？ 你不爱她，你会为她做哪么的多吗？就连情人节的chocolate也是我要你买给我的，很可笑吧？
你也从来不会在msn陪我聊天，你对我从来都没有耐心过，你从来都不回像你对她一样的那么对我，4年了，却也抵不过短短的一个月！！哈哈。。你真的很好笑！！
原来我才知道，你是多么的浪漫，愿来我才知道你只这么的回说甜言蜜语，原来我爱知道，为了她，你可以有着么多的改变，原来我才知道，你比较珍惜得来不易的她，原来我才知道，你这么的爱她！！
或许对你来说，我们的一切根本都不重要，重要的事你有了她！！我更知道你不伤心，因为你有了她，你有了一个更好的寄托！！
对于这样的一个你，我真的不爱了，我决定放手，把属于你的一切还给你，把属于她的你还给你，把你需要的一切还给你，希望她会是你正真想要的那一个，她会是你想要保护的那一个，她更会是你想要为她努力的那一个！！
祝福你，希望你真的会开心，会快乐，会幸福！！
dun put all the blame on me anymore, dun blame that because of me i get this situation like this, dun put all the blame on me when i found out that you actually do somthings wrong also...dun ever blame on ppl that they misunderstand you because of me ok? i never do anythings...
yes,we might fight everytime, we might quarrel, i might scolded you, and you scolded me like hell as well, this the way we communicate for 4 years, i respect you so far, but you never pay the same, you keep on lying, treating me like a fool....fooling on me in the past 20days...i choose to believe you again and again like what i always do before, but the reality is always cruel...i found out the truth again and again by myself, and i think this the fate, this the destiny, and i choose to believe on that blog you created for her at last....i give up, i choose not to love you anymore, but i will never hate you, i dun wan to make myself and my life so tiring....
yes, i might do somethings that is so wrong in our relationship, but dun put all the blame on me ok? if we can pass through all this while, and i really thought of changing, why not this time?you change because of her, you change untill you met her, so dun ever put the blame on me anymore ok?
and im enough of your everything this 20days, please stop scolding like nobody business when you are in bad mood or when you make her angry, please stop scolding me with those rude word, this will only make things even worst...try some better way to release your anger when you are in very bad mood....
please change your temper if you really want to get PEGGY...
and from now on, i will disappears in your life, and i will remove you from my mind...
i believe that i can life so fine without you, my like will be even enjoyable without you...
thank for giving me the past 4 years and the terrible 20days...i appreciate what you have gave me, i learn a lot from you...
take care and bye bye
Thursday, October 9, 2008
09/10/2008
没有你在身边的日子第16天！！
又是没有你的一天，心还在想你，可是这种感觉真的不知道该向谁说好，告诉她们我的心情，根本没有人会了解，他们就只会叫我放弃，放弃，还是放弃！！真得这么容易吗？或许你做得到，但对我而言，我真地做不到！！付出了的真感情真地说收回来就收回来这么的容易吗？付出了的感情真地说忘记就可以忘记的吗？付出了的感情真地说放弃就放弃的吗？这得可以这么得容易吗？我也尝试要放弃，我也尝试不想你，我也尝试要忘记，真的不是这么得容易的，因为我正真的爱过！！16天了，就这样过了16天了，曾经16这个数字对我而言，是多么的重要，它是我们在一起的日子，11月16号，可是将要来临的11月16号却是我感到很害怕的日子，多么希望那天不会到来！！4年了，一切有你的4年，让我习惯了你的一切，做些什么，去些什么地方都会有你，可是现在我就只能自己一个面对这一切！！你一定过得很好吧，至少你的生活是很充足的！！
今天的心情很不好，被骂了，心里有好多的委屈，想你，却没有勇气找你！！想想，就算是以前的你，也不怎么会安慰我吧，你就只会说没有东西啦，不要想这样多啦，有时你还甚至会骂我，可是我都已经习惯了，或许我了解到这就是你的关怀方式吧，你会骂我，不就代表了你是关心我的吗？习惯了这一切，你却走了，再也没有人会好像你一样的骂我了！！又要慢慢开始习惯另一种生活，没有你的生活！！4年的日子，说短不短，说长不长，可是我都习惯了有你，有你的一切！！
开始在想，我是真的该放弃了吗？我想我应该要放弃了，慢慢不再想你，慢慢习惯这一切一切，你可以这么快办到，我想我应该也可以，我相信我一定可以的！！用了4年的时间来爱你，现在还爱你，不知道这种感觉会持续多久，但我相信我一定需要很久很久的时间来忘记你，又或许你一直都会存在在我的心里！！你给了我很多未来的承诺，你答应要给我很不一样的未来，我也相信你的未来一定会很好，只是，我不再是你身边的哪一个，不过你一定会成功的，不是吗？
曾经，你有很大的梦想，你有很大的理想，你要有很不一样的未来！！你也为这一切在很努力着，你辛苦存钱，你在为这一切做很多的准备功夫，我也相信你会成功的！！
曾经，你很爱去popular, 我们每次出去，不过哪里都好，你都一定要去popular 和borders，有书局的地方，你一定都不会放过！！你在很努力的学习，不爱花钱的你，竟然在书本上花了最多的钱，为的只是要有更美好的将来！！我也已经习惯陪你逛书局了，可是，没有你在身边的日子，我却很害怕去书局，很怕会有你的一切，很怕又会想起你的一切！！4年了，真的有太多你的一切，救命啊，我真的真得快疯了！！
“犹太人的智慧”，是我现在在看的一本书，属于你的书！！你曾告诉我，犹太人的聪明，犹太人的经商智慧，犹太人的故事！！我才发觉，4年里，你告诉过我不少你学习到的智慧，你看过，听过的故事！！想你的时候，就只好看看“犹太人的智慧”而已，没有更好的事情可以做了！！现在的你，还有去书局吗？你该没忘记你自己的理想，你的梦想吧？好好加油吧，只要你一直在努力，我相信，你一定会有成功的一天的，你的身边，一定会有更值得你去努力的人的，不是吗？一定要好好加油，去实现你的梦想吧！！
记得，你一定要好好努力，我相信，只要你肯努力，你一定会成功的！！
我愿意静静地在你身边陪你度过你的喜怒哀乐，陪你度过你的一切，怀念我们拥有过的幸福！！
今天的你，过得还好吗？心情好点了吗？早点休息，早点睡吧！！还是一样，好好照顾自己吧！
a very bad day i had today...get scolded for no reason, i'm not tough enough, i'm not strong enough, i have enough protection from YOU previously, i'm not independent enough..still crying after so long,after i get scolded, i miss you so much at the moment, hope that i can call YOU like what i always do before when i need consolation from YOU, but i know i got no right to call YOU, and i dun wan to disturd at this moment anymore, i just can let my tears dropped to make myself felt better...dunno what should i do, there is too mucf of YOU in my mind and everywhere i go, i try to make myself busy, i go out as much as i can, i went home as late as i can, but there is still YOU in my mind and even everywhere..OH MY GOD, someone help me please, i cant stand for it anymore, i'm just too tired on all this...i cant stop myself from missing YOU...
I MISS YOU, my dear...take good care of yourself!!
又是没有你的一天，心还在想你，可是这种感觉真的不知道该向谁说好，告诉她们我的心情，根本没有人会了解，他们就只会叫我放弃，放弃，还是放弃！！真得这么容易吗？或许你做得到，但对我而言，我真地做不到！！付出了的真感情真地说收回来就收回来这么的容易吗？付出了的感情真地说忘记就可以忘记的吗？付出了的感情真地说放弃就放弃的吗？这得可以这么得容易吗？我也尝试要放弃，我也尝试不想你，我也尝试要忘记，真的不是这么得容易的，因为我正真的爱过！！16天了，就这样过了16天了，曾经16这个数字对我而言，是多么的重要，它是我们在一起的日子，11月16号，可是将要来临的11月16号却是我感到很害怕的日子，多么希望那天不会到来！！4年了，一切有你的4年，让我习惯了你的一切，做些什么，去些什么地方都会有你，可是现在我就只能自己一个面对这一切！！你一定过得很好吧，至少你的生活是很充足的！！
今天的心情很不好，被骂了，心里有好多的委屈，想你，却没有勇气找你！！想想，就算是以前的你，也不怎么会安慰我吧，你就只会说没有东西啦，不要想这样多啦，有时你还甚至会骂我，可是我都已经习惯了，或许我了解到这就是你的关怀方式吧，你会骂我，不就代表了你是关心我的吗？习惯了这一切，你却走了，再也没有人会好像你一样的骂我了！！又要慢慢开始习惯另一种生活，没有你的生活！！4年的日子，说短不短，说长不长，可是我都习惯了有你，有你的一切！！
开始在想，我是真的该放弃了吗？我想我应该要放弃了，慢慢不再想你，慢慢习惯这一切一切，你可以这么快办到，我想我应该也可以，我相信我一定可以的！！用了4年的时间来爱你，现在还爱你，不知道这种感觉会持续多久，但我相信我一定需要很久很久的时间来忘记你，又或许你一直都会存在在我的心里！！你给了我很多未来的承诺，你答应要给我很不一样的未来，我也相信你的未来一定会很好，只是，我不再是你身边的哪一个，不过你一定会成功的，不是吗？
曾经，你有很大的梦想，你有很大的理想，你要有很不一样的未来！！你也为这一切在很努力着，你辛苦存钱，你在为这一切做很多的准备功夫，我也相信你会成功的！！
曾经，你很爱去popular, 我们每次出去，不过哪里都好，你都一定要去popular 和borders，有书局的地方，你一定都不会放过！！你在很努力的学习，不爱花钱的你，竟然在书本上花了最多的钱，为的只是要有更美好的将来！！我也已经习惯陪你逛书局了，可是，没有你在身边的日子，我却很害怕去书局，很怕会有你的一切，很怕又会想起你的一切！！4年了，真的有太多你的一切，救命啊，我真的真得快疯了！！
“犹太人的智慧”，是我现在在看的一本书，属于你的书！！你曾告诉我，犹太人的聪明，犹太人的经商智慧，犹太人的故事！！我才发觉，4年里，你告诉过我不少你学习到的智慧，你看过，听过的故事！！想你的时候，就只好看看“犹太人的智慧”而已，没有更好的事情可以做了！！现在的你，还有去书局吗？你该没忘记你自己的理想，你的梦想吧？好好加油吧，只要你一直在努力，我相信，你一定会有成功的一天的，你的身边，一定会有更值得你去努力的人的，不是吗？一定要好好加油，去实现你的梦想吧！！
记得，你一定要好好努力，我相信，只要你肯努力，你一定会成功的！！
我愿意静静地在你身边陪你度过你的喜怒哀乐，陪你度过你的一切，怀念我们拥有过的幸福！！
今天的你，过得还好吗？心情好点了吗？早点休息，早点睡吧！！还是一样，好好照顾自己吧！
a very bad day i had today...get scolded for no reason, i'm not tough enough, i'm not strong enough, i have enough protection from YOU previously, i'm not independent enough..still crying after so long,after i get scolded, i miss you so much at the moment, hope that i can call YOU like what i always do before when i need consolation from YOU, but i know i got no right to call YOU, and i dun wan to disturd at this moment anymore, i just can let my tears dropped to make myself felt better...dunno what should i do, there is too mucf of YOU in my mind and everywhere i go, i try to make myself busy, i go out as much as i can, i went home as late as i can, but there is still YOU in my mind and even everywhere..OH MY GOD, someone help me please, i cant stand for it anymore, i'm just too tired on all this...i cant stop myself from missing YOU...
I MISS YOU, my dear...take good care of yourself!!
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
08/10/2008
没有你在身边的日子第15天！！
已有好久好久没有抱抱你了，可是如今的你却让我感到很陌生，很难以接近，我也不知道为什么？？你send 了连我也不知道该如何回答你的msn 给我，你不觉得这样的你真的好过分吗？就因为别人不了解，别人不懂你，你就可以把这一切的气出在我身上吗？感情不是儿戏，不是你说分就分，和就和，开玩笑带过的，你知道刚才这样的一个你让我有多心寒，多难受吗？原来我什么都不是，我只是个超级大傻瓜！！这样的一个你，真的值得让我还爱你吗？我真的不知道！！
我告诉你，你大可以告诉大家，是我不够好，是我不够温柔体贴，是我的脾气不好，是我的任性让你无法忍受，你才选择离开我，放弃我，决不是因为你爱上了另一个她才做的决定！！
你说连我也相信你是因为另一个她，要别人如何相信？至少你身边的朋友都相信你，不是吗？那又有谁来相信我，我是真的好痛苦，真的好伤心，心痛！！我是真得很想你！！
别告诉我你没在改变，只是你没察觉你的改变而已，什么都好，你都不一样了，变得不一样，好陌生，好有距离感！！你说你要自由，那好，我把你的自由还给了你，你说你要空间，我也把属于你的空间还给了你，你说不要任何人逼你，很好，我也没再逼你了，你还想要些什么，你还需要我把些什么还给你，你告诉我啊？我真得快疯了，真的快崩溃了！！谁来救救我！！
拼命找东西让自己做，不让自己闲下来，不让自己有时间去想你，可是我还是办不到，办不到，办不到，办不到！！！！一直都在想念着你，想念你的心情我真的不知道该向谁说好，因为更本没有人会懂，没有人了解！！我真得很想你，很想很想你！！
你告诉我，我该怎样才可以像你一样，不再想我，不再念我！！告诉我，我要如何才能做到跟你一样，一样的潇洒，一样的洒脱！！我好想你啊！！好久没听你说，宝贝，我爱你，宝贝，我想你了！！
昨晚没下雨，可是我也在想你，还好还有bear bear 可以陪伴着我，我至少不会这样的寂寞！！
你昨晚睡得还好吗？今天的你过得还好吗？心情还好吗？？
相信你最近都很早出门，很夜回家，你要好好的照顾自己，不要让自己累坏了！！对了，适当的运动是好的，过量的，如果你的身体不能负荷，就让自己好好休息吧！！一定要照顾自己，可以的话，别太迟回家，很危险的！！
decided to go for a K session later, too much pressure, too many things hide inside my hearts which i dunno how should i and who should i share with..i just need some place to release all this pressure and bad feelings..writing out my feelings over here may help only a while,but it never help much at all, i still got hard feelings...
dunno what should i say at this moments, but the same things i would like to tell you again and again, just call me if u wan somebody to talk to, call me if you need me, i may not help you on everythings, but i will be there to listen to you no matter what...so just feel free to call me if you need me, I promise I will be there!!!
you must take good care of yourself, try not to back home that late, have yourself enough sleep and rest, don't be too exhausted!!
Take care, my dear..
I MISS YOU
已有好久好久没有抱抱你了，可是如今的你却让我感到很陌生，很难以接近，我也不知道为什么？？你send 了连我也不知道该如何回答你的msn 给我，你不觉得这样的你真的好过分吗？就因为别人不了解，别人不懂你，你就可以把这一切的气出在我身上吗？感情不是儿戏，不是你说分就分，和就和，开玩笑带过的，你知道刚才这样的一个你让我有多心寒，多难受吗？原来我什么都不是，我只是个超级大傻瓜！！这样的一个你，真的值得让我还爱你吗？我真的不知道！！
我告诉你，你大可以告诉大家，是我不够好，是我不够温柔体贴，是我的脾气不好，是我的任性让你无法忍受，你才选择离开我，放弃我，决不是因为你爱上了另一个她才做的决定！！
你说连我也相信你是因为另一个她，要别人如何相信？至少你身边的朋友都相信你，不是吗？那又有谁来相信我，我是真的好痛苦，真的好伤心，心痛！！我是真得很想你！！
别告诉我你没在改变，只是你没察觉你的改变而已，什么都好，你都不一样了，变得不一样，好陌生，好有距离感！！你说你要自由，那好，我把你的自由还给了你，你说你要空间，我也把属于你的空间还给了你，你说不要任何人逼你，很好，我也没再逼你了，你还想要些什么，你还需要我把些什么还给你，你告诉我啊？我真得快疯了，真的快崩溃了！！谁来救救我！！
拼命找东西让自己做，不让自己闲下来，不让自己有时间去想你，可是我还是办不到，办不到，办不到，办不到！！！！一直都在想念着你，想念你的心情我真的不知道该向谁说好，因为更本没有人会懂，没有人了解！！我真得很想你，很想很想你！！
你告诉我，我该怎样才可以像你一样，不再想我，不再念我！！告诉我，我要如何才能做到跟你一样，一样的潇洒，一样的洒脱！！我好想你啊！！好久没听你说，宝贝，我爱你，宝贝，我想你了！！
昨晚没下雨，可是我也在想你，还好还有bear bear 可以陪伴着我，我至少不会这样的寂寞！！
你昨晚睡得还好吗？今天的你过得还好吗？心情还好吗？？
相信你最近都很早出门，很夜回家，你要好好的照顾自己，不要让自己累坏了！！对了，适当的运动是好的，过量的，如果你的身体不能负荷，就让自己好好休息吧！！一定要照顾自己，可以的话，别太迟回家，很危险的！！
decided to go for a K session later, too much pressure, too many things hide inside my hearts which i dunno how should i and who should i share with..i just need some place to release all this pressure and bad feelings..writing out my feelings over here may help only a while,but it never help much at all, i still got hard feelings...
dunno what should i say at this moments, but the same things i would like to tell you again and again, just call me if u wan somebody to talk to, call me if you need me, i may not help you on everythings, but i will be there to listen to you no matter what...so just feel free to call me if you need me, I promise I will be there!!!
you must take good care of yourself, try not to back home that late, have yourself enough sleep and rest, don't be too exhausted!!
Take care, my dear..
I MISS YOU
7/10/2008
没有你在身边的日子第14天！！
已经两个礼拜了，足足两个礼拜了，那天的情形还在我的脑海里，你告诉我的一切一切，都还在我的脑海里，一直都不能释怀，真的很让我伤心。为你，我真得不知流了多少的泪，为你不知失眠了多少个夜晚，好久好久没有好好的睡一觉了，那种感觉真的很痛苦！！
你真的很自私，真的！！或许你可以很enjoy 的与你的朋友在一起，看戏也好，什么都好，都能感觉，你是真的很开心的！！你更可以很也才睡，为的只是与她聊天，不是吗？我真得不知道你还隐瞒了多少的事情，我不知道你还有多少的东西是在骗我的，我真得不知道！！你告诉我的，你解释的，我都选择了相信你，可是当我无意知道那不是事实，我真得感觉自己好无知，真得不知道我还应该相信你吗？？
这么多天了，或许你不再想我，或许你根本不想理我，但是告诉你，我真得好想你，一直一直都好想你，不过，这一切还值得吗？或许你把这一切都忘得干干净净了，但我告诉你，真真在付出的感情是很难收回的，是很难忘记的，我真得做不到像你一样，这么得潇洒，这么得洒脱。
我真得不知道该如何是好，不想让眼泪继续的流，不想让自己这么的痛苦，没有任何人可以了解我的心情，因为你们不是我，真的不是我！！我真得付出了真感情，而你，真的变得好快好快，快得让我无法想象。。你真正在想些什么，我真得不知道，因为你都不曾告诉过我！！
我想今晚该会下雨，你曾告诉我，下雨天会让我睡得更好，我也希望是如此吧！！
下雨天了怎么办，我好想你，我不敢打给你，我找不到原因，为什么失眠的声音，变得好熟悉，期待让人越来越沉迷，谁和我一样等不到他的谁，爱上你我总在学会，寂寞的滋味。一个人擦泪，一个人好累。。怎样的雨，怎样的夜，怎样的我会让你更想念，雨要多大，天要多黑，才能够有你的体贴！！你曾许下的承诺永远都不会实现了，答应要带我去的地方，答应给我的一切一切都不可能了，你说了，不可能了，不是吗？
曾有那么一个人问过我，如果我有机会与你再在一起，我的脾气会改过来吗？我告诉他，我现在正努力着，因为我也需要让自己有一个改变，一个很完美的自己！！
还是一样，一样的我，一样还在想你，一样还想好好爱你。。想你！！
今天的你，应该过得很好吧！！脚伤应该好了很多吧，好好照顾自己吧！！
just come back from some party...no doubt, i still missing you, i try very hard of not to think bout you anymore,but i think im such a failure,because im still thinking of you no matter what i done, there is so much of your shadow all around..
I miss cinema, it has been quite a long time since last movie i went with you..
But im also afraid of stepping into the hall, there is still shadow of you..
You're cruel, because you left so much shadow and memories for me...It is hard for me to delete or even move away from my mind...
I MISS YOU obviously..
GOOD NIGHT!!
已经两个礼拜了，足足两个礼拜了，那天的情形还在我的脑海里，你告诉我的一切一切，都还在我的脑海里，一直都不能释怀，真的很让我伤心。为你，我真得不知流了多少的泪，为你不知失眠了多少个夜晚，好久好久没有好好的睡一觉了，那种感觉真的很痛苦！！
你真的很自私，真的！！或许你可以很enjoy 的与你的朋友在一起，看戏也好，什么都好，都能感觉，你是真的很开心的！！你更可以很也才睡，为的只是与她聊天，不是吗？我真得不知道你还隐瞒了多少的事情，我不知道你还有多少的东西是在骗我的，我真得不知道！！你告诉我的，你解释的，我都选择了相信你，可是当我无意知道那不是事实，我真得感觉自己好无知，真得不知道我还应该相信你吗？？
这么多天了，或许你不再想我，或许你根本不想理我，但是告诉你，我真得好想你，一直一直都好想你，不过，这一切还值得吗？或许你把这一切都忘得干干净净了，但我告诉你，真真在付出的感情是很难收回的，是很难忘记的，我真得做不到像你一样，这么得潇洒，这么得洒脱。
我真得不知道该如何是好，不想让眼泪继续的流，不想让自己这么的痛苦，没有任何人可以了解我的心情，因为你们不是我，真的不是我！！我真得付出了真感情，而你，真的变得好快好快，快得让我无法想象。。你真正在想些什么，我真得不知道，因为你都不曾告诉过我！！
我想今晚该会下雨，你曾告诉我，下雨天会让我睡得更好，我也希望是如此吧！！
下雨天了怎么办，我好想你，我不敢打给你，我找不到原因，为什么失眠的声音，变得好熟悉，期待让人越来越沉迷，谁和我一样等不到他的谁，爱上你我总在学会，寂寞的滋味。一个人擦泪，一个人好累。。怎样的雨，怎样的夜，怎样的我会让你更想念，雨要多大，天要多黑，才能够有你的体贴！！你曾许下的承诺永远都不会实现了，答应要带我去的地方，答应给我的一切一切都不可能了，你说了，不可能了，不是吗？
曾有那么一个人问过我，如果我有机会与你再在一起，我的脾气会改过来吗？我告诉他，我现在正努力着，因为我也需要让自己有一个改变，一个很完美的自己！！
还是一样，一样的我，一样还在想你，一样还想好好爱你。。想你！！
今天的你，应该过得很好吧！！脚伤应该好了很多吧，好好照顾自己吧！！
just come back from some party...no doubt, i still missing you, i try very hard of not to think bout you anymore,but i think im such a failure,because im still thinking of you no matter what i done, there is so much of your shadow all around..
I miss cinema, it has been quite a long time since last movie i went with you..
But im also afraid of stepping into the hall, there is still shadow of you..
You're cruel, because you left so much shadow and memories for me...It is hard for me to delete or even move away from my mind...
I MISS YOU obviously..
GOOD NIGHT!!
Monday, October 6, 2008
06/10/2008
没有你在身边的日子第13天！！
或许我真的该放弃了吗？我想我也真的开始放弃了，是你让我了解什么叫爱情，也是你让我从今开始害怕爱情，你让我相信永远的爱情，也是你让我不再相信这一切的，你真的好残忍！！别告诉我你不是因为另一个她而选择离开了我，我宁可相信你是因为另一个她，因为你的一举一动说明了这一切，不是吗？你让我不敢再相信爱情，你让我不敢再相信承诺，你让我觉得爱情其实真得很恐怖的不是吗？我真地做不倒像你一样，才分开没几天，你就开始与另一个她有说有笑，聊天至深夜，更开始有电话交谈，这你都从来不曾对我做过，不是吗？我真的好讨厌你，真的！！你很自私，你很残忍，你很无情。你说你现在需要空间，自由的空间，不过我相信，没多久你又会搭上另一辆爱情的列车，我相信你一定会！！很快的，你一定会投入另一个她的怀抱中！！
你让我觉得好恐怖，你让我这几天里想了好多好多，你也让我为你留了好多好多的泪水，你可以不再爱我，但你不可以让我讨厌你！！
曾经大家都说我们很幸福，我也曾经以为我们真得很幸福，可是这一切都很短暂，都已经结束了，你让我开始慢慢习惯没有你的生活，你让我有一段时间不敢好好地去逛街，你让我好一段时间都不敢踏入戏院半步，到处都是你的影子！！为什么在我要放弃你时，你要我留下，在我决定要好好爱你时，你却又选择了离开，选择了放弃我，也放弃了我们辛辛苦苦建立了的4年感情，你真的好自私，你知道吗？你让我有好一段时间不能好好的生活，我讨厌你！！
原来你都不会好好珍惜我们这一段感情，你也从来不会怀念，就如我所说的，你已经有了另一个她，你已经找到另一个她来代替我在你心目中的位置，或许我的位置已不再重要了吧！！
你告诉我，我们分开因为我们不能沟通，４年了，４年过后你才告诉我这一切？会不会太迟了些？我曾经要放弃你，你要我留下，待我适应了这样的一个你，这样的一个生活，你却说你要离开？为什么你不让我在放弃你是让我走，为什么你那么一次次的留我，在我越陷越深时却又说要离开我，为什么你可以这么的自私？为什么，告诉我为什么？
你让我会有好一段时间，或许很长的时间里不敢相信爱情，你让我对这一切都失去了信心，你让我必须从今以后一个人过任何的日子，你让我感到寂寞的痛，你让我不敢再去相信这一切一切！！你让我的心碎成一块一块，你让我们的爱情短成一段一段，一切都不可能了。
对，或许以后的任何一个日子里，我会想你，念你，会担心你，不过这一切都不重要了，要把我对你的爱，慢慢的收藏在心里面，慢慢的适应没有你的一的一切，我想我不会恨你，因为恨一个人，真地会让我好累好累，好辛苦！！
或许你也早已把我们的一切切忘的一干二净，我们的承诺，你还没兑现的承诺，你答应要带我去的地方，你答应要为我做的一切切，一切都不可能了，不是吗？你的承诺永远都不会兑现了！！
我们或许可以是最要好的知心朋友，又或许什么都不是，但是请你好好记得，曾经有那么一个人是真的付出了她的感情来对待你，她或许不是最好的，她或许不是最了解你的，但是她是真的 １００％用真心对待你的，她曾经那么的爱你，她曾经那么努力的配合你，因为她是真的付出了她对你的爱，她对你都在用真心的！！
你今天过得还好吗？希望你的脚真的完全复原了，不要逞强，如果真的不行的话，让自己好好的休息吧！！
still the same, just call me when you need me,just call me when you need somebody to talk to, I will be there to share everythings with you, I will be there to support you no matter what..
I MISS YOU i would say..
To anonymous: I dun expect he will read this, I dun expect to get him back and I dun even expect to 挽留些什么，you are not me,and you got no right to judge me from anythings..this is just my place for me to release my feelings, is nothing to do with you...yes, i might wan to share my feeling with others, but if it offended you,i just can say sorry..but there is still no right for u to write some bad comments on me..if you really dun like my blog just stay away from it, and i will be appreciate for what you had leave for me...thanks
或许我真的该放弃了吗？我想我也真的开始放弃了，是你让我了解什么叫爱情，也是你让我从今开始害怕爱情，你让我相信永远的爱情，也是你让我不再相信这一切的，你真的好残忍！！别告诉我你不是因为另一个她而选择离开了我，我宁可相信你是因为另一个她，因为你的一举一动说明了这一切，不是吗？你让我不敢再相信爱情，你让我不敢再相信承诺，你让我觉得爱情其实真得很恐怖的不是吗？我真地做不倒像你一样，才分开没几天，你就开始与另一个她有说有笑，聊天至深夜，更开始有电话交谈，这你都从来不曾对我做过，不是吗？我真的好讨厌你，真的！！你很自私，你很残忍，你很无情。你说你现在需要空间，自由的空间，不过我相信，没多久你又会搭上另一辆爱情的列车，我相信你一定会！！很快的，你一定会投入另一个她的怀抱中！！
你让我觉得好恐怖，你让我这几天里想了好多好多，你也让我为你留了好多好多的泪水，你可以不再爱我，但你不可以让我讨厌你！！
曾经大家都说我们很幸福，我也曾经以为我们真得很幸福，可是这一切都很短暂，都已经结束了，你让我开始慢慢习惯没有你的生活，你让我有一段时间不敢好好地去逛街，你让我好一段时间都不敢踏入戏院半步，到处都是你的影子！！为什么在我要放弃你时，你要我留下，在我决定要好好爱你时，你却又选择了离开，选择了放弃我，也放弃了我们辛辛苦苦建立了的4年感情，你真的好自私，你知道吗？你让我有好一段时间不能好好的生活，我讨厌你！！
原来你都不会好好珍惜我们这一段感情，你也从来不会怀念，就如我所说的，你已经有了另一个她，你已经找到另一个她来代替我在你心目中的位置，或许我的位置已不再重要了吧！！
你告诉我，我们分开因为我们不能沟通，４年了，４年过后你才告诉我这一切？会不会太迟了些？我曾经要放弃你，你要我留下，待我适应了这样的一个你，这样的一个生活，你却说你要离开？为什么你不让我在放弃你是让我走，为什么你那么一次次的留我，在我越陷越深时却又说要离开我，为什么你可以这么的自私？为什么，告诉我为什么？
你让我会有好一段时间，或许很长的时间里不敢相信爱情，你让我对这一切都失去了信心，你让我必须从今以后一个人过任何的日子，你让我感到寂寞的痛，你让我不敢再去相信这一切一切！！你让我的心碎成一块一块，你让我们的爱情短成一段一段，一切都不可能了。
对，或许以后的任何一个日子里，我会想你，念你，会担心你，不过这一切都不重要了，要把我对你的爱，慢慢的收藏在心里面，慢慢的适应没有你的一的一切，我想我不会恨你，因为恨一个人，真地会让我好累好累，好辛苦！！
或许你也早已把我们的一切切忘的一干二净，我们的承诺，你还没兑现的承诺，你答应要带我去的地方，你答应要为我做的一切切，一切都不可能了，不是吗？你的承诺永远都不会兑现了！！
我们或许可以是最要好的知心朋友，又或许什么都不是，但是请你好好记得，曾经有那么一个人是真的付出了她的感情来对待你，她或许不是最好的，她或许不是最了解你的，但是她是真的 １００％用真心对待你的，她曾经那么的爱你，她曾经那么努力的配合你，因为她是真的付出了她对你的爱，她对你都在用真心的！！
你今天过得还好吗？希望你的脚真的完全复原了，不要逞强，如果真的不行的话，让自己好好的休息吧！！
still the same, just call me when you need me,just call me when you need somebody to talk to, I will be there to share everythings with you, I will be there to support you no matter what..
I MISS YOU i would say..
To anonymous: I dun expect he will read this, I dun expect to get him back and I dun even expect to 挽留些什么，you are not me,and you got no right to judge me from anythings..this is just my place for me to release my feelings, is nothing to do with you...yes, i might wan to share my feeling with others, but if it offended you,i just can say sorry..but there is still no right for u to write some bad comments on me..if you really dun like my blog just stay away from it, and i will be appreciate for what you had leave for me...thanks
Sunday, October 5, 2008
5/10/2008
没有你的日子第12天！！
开始在想我是大笨蛋吗？我真的很好骗吗？我想我真的被你骗了一次又一次，你真的值得我再 等待，再爱你吗？变了质的感情还会回来，还会升温吗？变了心的你，还会重新爱上我吗? 或许我一开始就该相信你已爱上了另一个她，那至少我不会这样的痛苦，不是吗？你真的变得好快，你真得好无情，好残忍，我爱你，但我也恨你！！
想想，或许让你闯了闯，做了你爱做的事，又或许你还会回来呢？未来的事，没有人会知道的，不是吗？看来现在的日子里，就只会有你送我的bear bear 和heart shape 陪伴我了吧！！至少还有属于你的一切，你送的戒指，我会好好保留的！！我曾告诉过你，我做了很可怕的梦，梦见你离开了我，离开了这个世界，很多次了，一直告诉你要送我一个属于你的bear bear 给我，万一你真得离开了我，至少还有一个属于你的东西陪着我，拖了好久，你从thailand带了这样一个可以录音的bear bear 给我。我真的好感动，至少现在它可以代替你陪陪我了，我可以抱着它入睡，就好像你还在身边似的，还好我还有它的陪伴，不然我真的会崩溃的！！
不会再相信你了，或许这对你来说根本都已不再重要了，我宁可相信我自己，虽然真的很不习惯没有你的日子，不过我一定会好好的过，好好地站起来，从新出发，又或许会有那么一天，你发觉你还是爱我的！！如果你还爱我，就请你告诉我，因为我也爱你！！
你给我的一切一切，我都会好好的收藏，因为那是属于我们两个的一切，属于我们的回忆，谁也不能代替，谁也不能取代的！！或许会有那么一天，你也在想我，还想好好的爱我，别担心，我会一直都在的！！一直都在你身边陪着你，需要我的话，call 我，sms 我吧！！我一直都在的！！
还会想你，还在爱你，不过我们现在不能回到从前，一切从零开始吧！！好好过你的生活吧，还是一样，酒别喝得太多，真的很伤身体的！！你的脚还痛的话，去看跌打吧！！好好照顾自己吧！
记得我一直都在，需要我的话就找我吧，永远都不会拒绝你！！你是第一个让我付出了真感情的男生，你让我了解一切，你让我懂得一切，你让我学会珍惜，你更让我学会爱一个人就要让他自由，还你属于你的自由，还你属于你的一切，好好珍惜属于你的一切吧，我的宝贝！！
好好照顾自己，需要我的话，一定要call 我，我相信我还会爱你很久很久，一直都会！！
you let me see things clearly, you let me know what is happening actually, you let me undersatnd that i should learn to appreciate what im having now..lucky i still have my family,my cousin and my "dai gu lai" supporting me all the way...I LOVE YOU and I LOVE THEM as well..
i will still miss you no matter what, but i know i have to be strong enough, i will stay tough..
我会好好过，等你再爱我，总有个角落，会让你想起我！！
I'm still waiting for the miracle to happen because I still LOVE YOU deeply..
Good Night my DEAR....miss you and love you
开始在想我是大笨蛋吗？我真的很好骗吗？我想我真的被你骗了一次又一次，你真的值得我再 等待，再爱你吗？变了质的感情还会回来，还会升温吗？变了心的你，还会重新爱上我吗? 或许我一开始就该相信你已爱上了另一个她，那至少我不会这样的痛苦，不是吗？你真的变得好快，你真得好无情，好残忍，我爱你，但我也恨你！！
想想，或许让你闯了闯，做了你爱做的事，又或许你还会回来呢？未来的事，没有人会知道的，不是吗？看来现在的日子里，就只会有你送我的bear bear 和heart shape 陪伴我了吧！！至少还有属于你的一切，你送的戒指，我会好好保留的！！我曾告诉过你，我做了很可怕的梦，梦见你离开了我，离开了这个世界，很多次了，一直告诉你要送我一个属于你的bear bear 给我，万一你真得离开了我，至少还有一个属于你的东西陪着我，拖了好久，你从thailand带了这样一个可以录音的bear bear 给我。我真的好感动，至少现在它可以代替你陪陪我了，我可以抱着它入睡，就好像你还在身边似的，还好我还有它的陪伴，不然我真的会崩溃的！！
不会再相信你了，或许这对你来说根本都已不再重要了，我宁可相信我自己，虽然真的很不习惯没有你的日子，不过我一定会好好的过，好好地站起来，从新出发，又或许会有那么一天，你发觉你还是爱我的！！如果你还爱我，就请你告诉我，因为我也爱你！！
你给我的一切一切，我都会好好的收藏，因为那是属于我们两个的一切，属于我们的回忆，谁也不能代替，谁也不能取代的！！或许会有那么一天，你也在想我，还想好好的爱我，别担心，我会一直都在的！！一直都在你身边陪着你，需要我的话，call 我，sms 我吧！！我一直都在的！！
还会想你，还在爱你，不过我们现在不能回到从前，一切从零开始吧！！好好过你的生活吧，还是一样，酒别喝得太多，真的很伤身体的！！你的脚还痛的话，去看跌打吧！！好好照顾自己吧！
记得我一直都在，需要我的话就找我吧，永远都不会拒绝你！！你是第一个让我付出了真感情的男生，你让我了解一切，你让我懂得一切，你让我学会珍惜，你更让我学会爱一个人就要让他自由，还你属于你的自由，还你属于你的一切，好好珍惜属于你的一切吧，我的宝贝！！
好好照顾自己，需要我的话，一定要call 我，我相信我还会爱你很久很久，一直都会！！
you let me see things clearly, you let me know what is happening actually, you let me undersatnd that i should learn to appreciate what im having now..lucky i still have my family,my cousin and my "dai gu lai" supporting me all the way...I LOVE YOU and I LOVE THEM as well..
i will still miss you no matter what, but i know i have to be strong enough, i will stay tough..
我会好好过，等你再爱我，总有个角落，会让你想起我！！
I'm still waiting for the miracle to happen because I still LOVE YOU deeply..
Good Night my DEAR....miss you and love you
Saturday, October 4, 2008
4/10/2008
没有你在身边的日子第11天。
今天终于想开了，我也希望我想开了，慢慢让自己放下吧，决定了不烦你，决定了不再问你同样的问题，让你有属于你自己的空间，不再逼你了，让我们都有时间好好的想想吧！感情或许还在，只是感觉暂时不在了，让我们都有时间好好想想吧！！
不烦你，不代表不再想你，不烦你，不代表不再爱你，只是想让你有自由的空间，你说了，现在的你需要空间，离开我，不代表你爱上了另一个她，只是你需要空间，freedom!! 不知道你的心还在不在，不知道你还会不会怀念我们的一切，不知道你还会不会想我，担心我，像以前一样的想念着我？真得不想让现在的我会令你看不起，一直努力要好好的过，可是我真得做不到，没有你的呵护，怎么好像少了些什么似的，一直都还在想你！！你也会再想我吗？
再也没有人会像你一样的疼我，像你一样会把疼我挂在嘴边，再也没有人可以让我偶尔撒撒娇了，再也没有人会在我生病时关心我，催我去看医生了，不过我相信这样的你一定还存在的，你一直都会在我身边陪着我，守护着我的，不是吗？
你给了我很多的承诺，可是还有很多都还没有兑现，可是我一直深信你一定会回来兑现的，你一定会，因为我对你有信心！！
真得不想再给你太多的压力了，至少你答应了我们每个星期天会一起吃晚餐的，我应该要好好珍惜这样的机会，因为不想在失去些什么了。放心吧，我真的不会再烦你，不再给你任何的压力了！！
我一直都在，一直都会陪在你身边的，真得需要我的话，call 我，在夜都没有问题的，真的！！
还有，有酒精的东西真得不要喝得太多了，你真的不能负荷的，答应我！！
相信我，我真得一直都会在你身边陪伴着你的，一直都会！！
今天的你过得还好吗？心情还好吗？
我还是一样，很想你，真的都在想你！！
something really bad happen to me today, feeling so suffer, i think i gonna fall soon, cant stay that tough anymore, i'm sick, sick of everthings...i hope YOU will be by myside when things are happening. i hope YOU will be the one who stay right by my side, hug me tight, hold me tight to give me enough support, i always hope YOU will be the only one for me, my dear...
dun feel hestitae when you feel like calling me, as i said, i will be there for YOU no matter what, YOU will always be the one who i care the most..
Good night dear, miss you
今天终于想开了，我也希望我想开了，慢慢让自己放下吧，决定了不烦你，决定了不再问你同样的问题，让你有属于你自己的空间，不再逼你了，让我们都有时间好好的想想吧！感情或许还在，只是感觉暂时不在了，让我们都有时间好好想想吧！！
不烦你，不代表不再想你，不烦你，不代表不再爱你，只是想让你有自由的空间，你说了，现在的你需要空间，离开我，不代表你爱上了另一个她，只是你需要空间，freedom!! 不知道你的心还在不在，不知道你还会不会怀念我们的一切，不知道你还会不会想我，担心我，像以前一样的想念着我？真得不想让现在的我会令你看不起，一直努力要好好的过，可是我真得做不到，没有你的呵护，怎么好像少了些什么似的，一直都还在想你！！你也会再想我吗？
再也没有人会像你一样的疼我，像你一样会把疼我挂在嘴边，再也没有人可以让我偶尔撒撒娇了，再也没有人会在我生病时关心我，催我去看医生了，不过我相信这样的你一定还存在的，你一直都会在我身边陪着我，守护着我的，不是吗？
你给了我很多的承诺，可是还有很多都还没有兑现，可是我一直深信你一定会回来兑现的，你一定会，因为我对你有信心！！
真得不想再给你太多的压力了，至少你答应了我们每个星期天会一起吃晚餐的，我应该要好好珍惜这样的机会，因为不想在失去些什么了。放心吧，我真的不会再烦你，不再给你任何的压力了！！
我一直都在，一直都会陪在你身边的，真得需要我的话，call 我，在夜都没有问题的，真的！！
还有，有酒精的东西真得不要喝得太多了，你真的不能负荷的，答应我！！
相信我，我真得一直都会在你身边陪伴着你的，一直都会！！
今天的你过得还好吗？心情还好吗？
我还是一样，很想你，真的都在想你！！
something really bad happen to me today, feeling so suffer, i think i gonna fall soon, cant stay that tough anymore, i'm sick, sick of everthings...i hope YOU will be by myside when things are happening. i hope YOU will be the one who stay right by my side, hug me tight, hold me tight to give me enough support, i always hope YOU will be the only one for me, my dear...
dun feel hestitae when you feel like calling me, as i said, i will be there for YOU no matter what, YOU will always be the one who i care the most..
Good night dear, miss you
Friday, October 3, 2008
3/10/2008
没有你在身边的日子已有10了。
今天一大早就出门了，原以为我会玩得很开心，但心里还是很想你，到处都是你的影子。那种感觉很不舒服，看到什么，听到什么，想些什么，全都是你，我真的还会想你！！
我也好希望可以好像你一样，把回忆忘的一干二净，不再去想你，可是我就是做不到，一直都活在你给的回忆当中。你让我习惯了你的一切，你让我习惯了你在我身边的守候，却突然很残忍地把一切都收了回去，你没来得及给时间我好好的忘记你，你说走就走，真得好惨忍！！
我真的做不到像你一样的潇洒，或许对你而言，这一切都不重要吧，4年的感情根本不算什么，根本没什么好回忆的，但对我而言，那却是我最重要的回忆，属于你给我的回忆！！
或许我因该一早就该察觉到你的改变了吧，你忽冷忽热的，有时真得令我好难受，我真的就快崩溃了，我真的心疲力尽了，真的好像不再去想你，可是我真的做不到，一直一直都是你的影子，一直一直都希望你还在身边，都过去了，不会再回来了，不是吗？
你曾说过你喜欢长头发的女生，或许现在的你已经找到了另一个长头发的“她”？我不知道，也非常害怕的知道。
真得摸不着你在想些什么，我很想知道确又很害怕知道，事实往往都是残酷，残忍的，不是吗？
从24号起，你说了很多很残忍的话，一次又一次的伤害了我的心，我真得不知道我还可以负荷得了吗？我不知道，我真的快疯了，我真的快崩溃了，又由谁来救救我好吗？我真的好痛苦，心里真的很不舒服，真得好想你！！你还会回来吗？
告诉我，你是如何做到这么的残忍，这么的无情，这么得潇洒，告诉我，求你告诉我！！
今天心里一直有很不好的感觉，像是什么很严重的事情会发生似的，很想call你，问问你是不是安全的，可是真得再也提不起勇气了，一直到看到你online 了，想必你到家了吧，安全了，心也比较安定了。。
决定了不烦你，可是不知道为什么好像还是会给了你很多的烦恼事了，对不起！！
你真的可以这么的洒脱，你真的可以就这样把一切都忘得干干净净了吗？你难道一点都不会怀念吗？我想你不会了，在无情，再残忍的话你都说尽了，你对我们的一切根本都不在乎了。你放弃了我，也放弃了一切，对不起！！
你今天过得还好吗？心情还可以吗？脚还会痛吗？胃不舒服就真的不要很那么多得酒了，要好好照顾自己！！
我今天过得一点也不好，心情还是一样低落，因为我还在想你，一直都在想你，一直一直都会！！失眠的感觉越来越熟悉，想你的感觉越来越强烈，真的还会想你！！
寂寞的时候，要记得我一直都在，一直都在想念着你，一直都会在你身旁陪着你，一直都会！！
there is always someone who will be by yourside supporting you, accompanying you all the way,
just remember there is always someone by yourside when you need her..
Good night dear, I love & I miss you deeply...对不起。
今天一大早就出门了，原以为我会玩得很开心，但心里还是很想你，到处都是你的影子。那种感觉很不舒服，看到什么，听到什么，想些什么，全都是你，我真的还会想你！！
我也好希望可以好像你一样，把回忆忘的一干二净，不再去想你，可是我就是做不到，一直都活在你给的回忆当中。你让我习惯了你的一切，你让我习惯了你在我身边的守候，却突然很残忍地把一切都收了回去，你没来得及给时间我好好的忘记你，你说走就走，真得好惨忍！！
我真的做不到像你一样的潇洒，或许对你而言，这一切都不重要吧，4年的感情根本不算什么，根本没什么好回忆的，但对我而言，那却是我最重要的回忆，属于你给我的回忆！！
或许我因该一早就该察觉到你的改变了吧，你忽冷忽热的，有时真得令我好难受，我真的就快崩溃了，我真的心疲力尽了，真的好像不再去想你，可是我真的做不到，一直一直都是你的影子，一直一直都希望你还在身边，都过去了，不会再回来了，不是吗？
你曾说过你喜欢长头发的女生，或许现在的你已经找到了另一个长头发的“她”？我不知道，也非常害怕的知道。
真得摸不着你在想些什么，我很想知道确又很害怕知道，事实往往都是残酷，残忍的，不是吗？
从24号起，你说了很多很残忍的话，一次又一次的伤害了我的心，我真得不知道我还可以负荷得了吗？我不知道，我真的快疯了，我真的快崩溃了，又由谁来救救我好吗？我真的好痛苦，心里真的很不舒服，真得好想你！！你还会回来吗？
告诉我，你是如何做到这么的残忍，这么的无情，这么得潇洒，告诉我，求你告诉我！！
今天心里一直有很不好的感觉，像是什么很严重的事情会发生似的，很想call你，问问你是不是安全的，可是真得再也提不起勇气了，一直到看到你online 了，想必你到家了吧，安全了，心也比较安定了。。
决定了不烦你，可是不知道为什么好像还是会给了你很多的烦恼事了，对不起！！
你真的可以这么的洒脱，你真的可以就这样把一切都忘得干干净净了吗？你难道一点都不会怀念吗？我想你不会了，在无情，再残忍的话你都说尽了，你对我们的一切根本都不在乎了。你放弃了我，也放弃了一切，对不起！！
你今天过得还好吗？心情还可以吗？脚还会痛吗？胃不舒服就真的不要很那么多得酒了，要好好照顾自己！！
我今天过得一点也不好，心情还是一样低落，因为我还在想你，一直都在想你，一直一直都会！！失眠的感觉越来越熟悉，想你的感觉越来越强烈，真的还会想你！！
寂寞的时候，要记得我一直都在，一直都在想念着你，一直都会在你身旁陪着你，一直都会！！
there is always someone who will be by yourside supporting you, accompanying you all the way,
just remember there is always someone by yourside when you need her..
Good night dear, I love & I miss you deeply...对不起。
Thursday, October 2, 2008
2/10/2008
又是一个没有你的日子，还是一样，很想你，很想抱抱你！！心很不踏实，真的好想call你， 好想像以前一样，想你的时候就call你，DEAR 你知道吗，我真的好想你，很不舒服，那种感觉真的很不好，因为我很想你，真的很想！！我还可以抱抱你吗？我们还有可能吗？
一天又一天的过去了，电话响时，多么希望那会是你，你真的一点都不想我了吗？
已经九天了，没有你在身边的日子已有九天那么的长了，我一直一直的都在想你，做什么都好，真的会想你，想你的时候，真的好想call 你，sms你，可是却再也提不起勇气告诉你“dear,我想念你，你有好久没有抱抱我了！！” 我们还能从来吗？不敢想的太多，期望越高，失望更高！
想你的时候，眼泪不听使唤的又流了下来，不管在哪都好，眼泪还是会流，我还是一直一直都在想你！！去到哪里，都希望陪在我身边会是你，做什么都好，我都好想有你，真的好想好想有你！还有太多的话没说，我们还有太多的地方没去，还有太多的事情都还没有实现，你就这样得离开我了，不要我了，永远地离开我了，再也不会回来了，我真的很不舍得，真的还会想你！
好想念你的一切，我在想，你会不会有一天出现在我面前，也告诉我，我也想你，我们从来好吗？不可能了，不是吗？
想你的时候，就只能抱抱你送给我的bearbear 而已了，抱着它，心比较安定，想像你还在身边，你还在我的身边陪着我，可是你录给我的声音都不在了，一直想告诉你“我好想你，你回来好吗？”
just couldn't stop myself from missing you,thinking of you, i want to hug you so much, i want to pamper by you so much,just like how you will do last time..i feel so lost without you..
i want you so much, i really miss you so much..
there is no right and wrong in LOVE i realize, there is no reason for u to love someone so much, i just couldn't give myself any reason of loving you so much..i miss everythings from you, i miss you calling me laopo, i miss you calling me 小肥婆, i miss you saying that you love me, i just miss you, i really really do....
I LOVE YOU, Dear...
一天又一天的过去了，电话响时，多么希望那会是你，你真的一点都不想我了吗？
已经九天了，没有你在身边的日子已有九天那么的长了，我一直一直的都在想你，做什么都好，真的会想你，想你的时候，真的好想call 你，sms你，可是却再也提不起勇气告诉你“dear,我想念你，你有好久没有抱抱我了！！” 我们还能从来吗？不敢想的太多，期望越高，失望更高！
想你的时候，眼泪不听使唤的又流了下来，不管在哪都好，眼泪还是会流，我还是一直一直都在想你！！去到哪里，都希望陪在我身边会是你，做什么都好，我都好想有你，真的好想好想有你！还有太多的话没说，我们还有太多的地方没去，还有太多的事情都还没有实现，你就这样得离开我了，不要我了，永远地离开我了，再也不会回来了，我真的很不舍得，真的还会想你！
好想念你的一切，我在想，你会不会有一天出现在我面前，也告诉我，我也想你，我们从来好吗？不可能了，不是吗？
想你的时候，就只能抱抱你送给我的bearbear 而已了，抱着它，心比较安定，想像你还在身边，你还在我的身边陪着我，可是你录给我的声音都不在了，一直想告诉你“我好想你，你回来好吗？”
just couldn't stop myself from missing you,thinking of you, i want to hug you so much, i want to pamper by you so much,just like how you will do last time..i feel so lost without you..
i want you so much, i really miss you so much..
there is no right and wrong in LOVE i realize, there is no reason for u to love someone so much, i just couldn't give myself any reason of loving you so much..i miss everythings from you, i miss you calling me laopo, i miss you calling me 小肥婆, i miss you saying that you love me, i just miss you, i really really do....
I LOVE YOU, Dear...
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
1/10/2008
已经一个礼拜了，刚刚一个礼拜了，我真的还会想你，一直都很想你，你会想我吗？
没有你在身边的日子已由一个礼拜了，我真的不习惯，还会想你，因为我发觉我真的好爱好爱你！！没有你的简讯，没有你的电话，没有你的唠叨，没有你的一切一切，做什么都好像不对似的，你还会回来吗？好久好久没再听你喊我“小肥婆”咯，我真的好想你！！
好久没有你的good night msg 了，好久没有你的一切了，我一直好像告诉你，我真的好想你，无法自拔的在想你！！或许你不再想我，或许你不再爱我，又或许，我真的不敢想象，那种感觉真的好恐怖，好害怕！！
i just dunno why the feeling toward you is still so strong, i cant stop myself from missing you, feel like calling you, but there is no topics for us...i cant call YOU like last time, call u for no reason, call u just to heard your voice, cant do all this anymore, i just miss all this...I REALLY MISS YOU badly..
cant stop my tears from dropping once i think of you, i have to be tough, i know i have to, but i just couldn't do that, i hope i can let go like this, but i cant, cause i know I LOVE YOU deeply..
when only all this bad feelings go away?
when only i can stop myself from thinking of you?
when only i can stop my tears from dropping?
Dear, i really miss you..
没有你在身边的日子已由一个礼拜了，我真的不习惯，还会想你，因为我发觉我真的好爱好爱你！！没有你的简讯，没有你的电话，没有你的唠叨，没有你的一切一切，做什么都好像不对似的，你还会回来吗？好久好久没再听你喊我“小肥婆”咯，我真的好想你！！
好久没有你的good night msg 了，好久没有你的一切了，我一直好像告诉你，我真的好想你，无法自拔的在想你！！或许你不再想我，或许你不再爱我，又或许，我真的不敢想象，那种感觉真的好恐怖，好害怕！！
i just dunno why the feeling toward you is still so strong, i cant stop myself from missing you, feel like calling you, but there is no topics for us...i cant call YOU like last time, call u for no reason, call u just to heard your voice, cant do all this anymore, i just miss all this...I REALLY MISS YOU badly..
cant stop my tears from dropping once i think of you, i have to be tough, i know i have to, but i just couldn't do that, i hope i can let go like this, but i cant, cause i know I LOVE YOU deeply..
when only all this bad feelings go away?
when only i can stop myself from thinking of you?
when only i can stop my tears from dropping?
Dear, i really miss you..
Monday, September 29, 2008
29/09/2008
nothing much today...i just wanna shout out
I MISS YOU
I MISS YOU
I MISS YOU
I MISS YOU
I MISS YOU
I MISS YOU
and i really really do
I MISS YOU
I MISS YOU
I MISS YOU
I MISS YOU
I MISS YOU
I MISS YOU
and i really really do
Sunday, September 28, 2008
28/09-2008
just reach home after a drinks outside...i meet him just now for a simple dinner..meet him after so many days, yes, I MISS YOU..
received a msg from you, but i thought it was you sending the wrong msg, because the msg was like connected with another previous msg, but i didn't msg you for the whole day cause i say i wont fan you anymore..but you told me that a msg for me, i hope it was true and i really really hope so...just tell me the truth...dun ever lie to me, tell me the true and i will be feeling better..
keep finding something better for me to do so i wouldn't think so much like last few days, and i'm feeling much more better today cause i know i will be meeting him today although is was just a very very very simple dinner, but i still appreciate it..the feelings are so confusing, i dunno how to describe it by now, no word can say out my feelings..
dunno how will i pass my day tomorrow cause i know it will be another boring day, i know i shouldn't think that much anymore, but the feelings is still strong, i'm afraid of it, i scare i will be awake in the midnight, the feeling of being alone is quite scary actually..
anyway, i think i should not thinking that much anymore, it was enough..
tomorrow will be a better day, i believe
I MISS YOU, nitez
received a msg from you, but i thought it was you sending the wrong msg, because the msg was like connected with another previous msg, but i didn't msg you for the whole day cause i say i wont fan you anymore..but you told me that a msg for me, i hope it was true and i really really hope so...just tell me the truth...dun ever lie to me, tell me the true and i will be feeling better..
keep finding something better for me to do so i wouldn't think so much like last few days, and i'm feeling much more better today cause i know i will be meeting him today although is was just a very very very simple dinner, but i still appreciate it..the feelings are so confusing, i dunno how to describe it by now, no word can say out my feelings..
dunno how will i pass my day tomorrow cause i know it will be another boring day, i know i shouldn't think that much anymore, but the feelings is still strong, i'm afraid of it, i scare i will be awake in the midnight, the feeling of being alone is quite scary actually..
anyway, i think i should not thinking that much anymore, it was enough..
tomorrow will be a better day, i believe
I MISS YOU, nitez
28/09/2008
今天已经第四天了，我也不知道自己的心情为什么还是那么的糟糕，每晚都会半夜醒了过来，对，我告诉自己，一定要好好的过，只是，这一切都需要时间不是吗？
promise not to fan you, promise not to give you any trouble anymore, give sometime to both of us, and I believe we will pass through all this, just the time matter..
not much reason for me to create a new blog, just new life, new place needed for me to release all the feelings yet I always needed someone to talk to me, I need somebody to understand my feelings and I will be glad if ppl are willing to pamper me all the while..
nothing much of the first post i guess, anyway welcome to my life, all my friends..
catch up with me more on my blog, and I think I will update myself more oftenly over here..
promise not to fan you, promise not to give you any trouble anymore, give sometime to both of us, and I believe we will pass through all this, just the time matter..
not much reason for me to create a new blog, just new life, new place needed for me to release all the feelings yet I always needed someone to talk to me, I need somebody to understand my feelings and I will be glad if ppl are willing to pamper me all the while..
nothing much of the first post i guess, anyway welcome to my life, all my friends..
catch up with me more on my blog, and I think I will update myself more oftenly over here..
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