New Brand Of Contact Lense = Tired Eye everyday...not comfortable at all..
New Pair Of Shoe = Leg Injured...so pain for the whole day..
New Environment = Make myself use to the life right now...
Tired & Pain!!!!
I'm tired...ishhh
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Thursday, November 13, 2008
Thursday, October 23, 2008
23/10/2008
complicated feelings and mood i had today...
i'm thinking of to start a new relationship, but i was afraid of the feelings so much, really feel so scrae of the feelings once i think bout it...it hurt me a lot, it take sometime for me to stand for it, it take sometime for me to negotiate with it, i hate that feelings...
the feelings was so bad actually, im trying so hard not to think bout it anymore, the most i pretend, the more sadness i will get it in the end...
i wonder, what was happening to me actually,
i wonder, what was happening actually,
i wonder, is there solution for all the problems...
i need some secure, some useful secure..
i got no idea about how long i will take to start a new relationship, perhaps it might take quite sometime i should say...and i dun think my maturity by now is enough for me to start a new one or even suit myself with another one...
i dunno who should i share my feelings with, i wonder whether they really understand my feelings...i dunno how...the word HURT was deep inside my heart...i dunno how many times i should cry for the past, i dunno by how only i can stop of thinking those bad days...i hardly remember those sweet memories, all in my mind by now was the word he use to hurt me, scold me and so on...i wonder how can i cope with it, i really dunno, and i need to know...
i laugh out loudly when i hang out with friends, i was crazing around like a monkey, i do as much things as i can, i hang out as late as i can, that the way for me right now, i think...
i need some place to shout out as loud as i can,
i need some place some music that can make me cry out as long as i can,
i need someone shoulder who can lend me whenever i need it....
i need someone to hug me tightly when i need convince...
i need i need i need i need i need i need i need SOMEBODY....
i realize i got so much protection since im young, i scare to be hurt actually, and the feelings was so bad actually...i rather to hide all my feelings, i feel so scare to tell anyone actually...i rather to hide all it, i rather im the only one who know all about it, im not pity at all, just i need time..i really dunno how long it will take...all the damm feelings just come back in a sudden..
so many things i want to know but i was afraid to know bout it also...i dunno how...
deleted everythings bout him, photo, message, email and everythings...
i wonder is this the best way...
i wonder is there still somebody will be faithful in LOVE..
i wonder is there still somebody who willing to love me, pamper me, taking care of me as much as they can?
i wonder is there still someone i will fall for him so much...
i wonder is there still someone who will not hurt me like how much he had done...
i wonder i wonder and i wonder...
I don't really know actually...
I really feel tired in this 4years, I feel so tired for everythings epescially those 20 bad damm days..
FRUSTRATED of everythings...
断了联络，断了思念，最后的希望也灰飞湮灭，心已疲倦，痛吗？
我不懂，也不想懂！！
i'm thinking of to start a new relationship, but i was afraid of the feelings so much, really feel so scrae of the feelings once i think bout it...it hurt me a lot, it take sometime for me to stand for it, it take sometime for me to negotiate with it, i hate that feelings...
the feelings was so bad actually, im trying so hard not to think bout it anymore, the most i pretend, the more sadness i will get it in the end...
i wonder, what was happening to me actually,
i wonder, what was happening actually,
i wonder, is there solution for all the problems...
i need some secure, some useful secure..
i got no idea about how long i will take to start a new relationship, perhaps it might take quite sometime i should say...and i dun think my maturity by now is enough for me to start a new one or even suit myself with another one...
i dunno who should i share my feelings with, i wonder whether they really understand my feelings...i dunno how...the word HURT was deep inside my heart...i dunno how many times i should cry for the past, i dunno by how only i can stop of thinking those bad days...i hardly remember those sweet memories, all in my mind by now was the word he use to hurt me, scold me and so on...i wonder how can i cope with it, i really dunno, and i need to know...
i laugh out loudly when i hang out with friends, i was crazing around like a monkey, i do as much things as i can, i hang out as late as i can, that the way for me right now, i think...
i need some place to shout out as loud as i can,
i need some place some music that can make me cry out as long as i can,
i need someone shoulder who can lend me whenever i need it....
i need someone to hug me tightly when i need convince...
i need i need i need i need i need i need i need SOMEBODY....
i realize i got so much protection since im young, i scare to be hurt actually, and the feelings was so bad actually...i rather to hide all my feelings, i feel so scare to tell anyone actually...i rather to hide all it, i rather im the only one who know all about it, im not pity at all, just i need time..i really dunno how long it will take...all the damm feelings just come back in a sudden..
so many things i want to know but i was afraid to know bout it also...i dunno how...
deleted everythings bout him, photo, message, email and everythings...
i wonder is this the best way...
i wonder is there still somebody will be faithful in LOVE..
i wonder is there still somebody who willing to love me, pamper me, taking care of me as much as they can?
i wonder is there still someone i will fall for him so much...
i wonder is there still someone who will not hurt me like how much he had done...
i wonder i wonder and i wonder...
I don't really know actually...
I really feel tired in this 4years, I feel so tired for everythings epescially those 20 bad damm days..
FRUSTRATED of everythings...
断了联络，断了思念，最后的希望也灰飞湮灭，心已疲倦，痛吗？
我不懂，也不想懂！！
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